i guess i've finally sorted out my thoughts a little..

much as i am afraid to go on n face e unpleasant music.. i guess i'll still have to grip on n push on. thinking of the amount of money i've spent, the amount of time i've wasted.. i cannot jus give up at this point of time. i will hate to disappoint my parents and myself. i've went through all kind of shit, wat is this final last lap? i will jus get it over n done with. i'll jus have to keep reminding myself and make it through this last 2 months. when e semester is over, things will be alright and when 2006 comes, i'll start afresh and push myself on to complete my diploma. i MUST DO IT.. cant let myself be daunted but these disgusting people. the more they wanna see me die the more i'll prove to them i am no pushover. quitting now jus proves i'm a loser. i'm sure i'm made of tougher stuff.

the company i got from my friends the past few days was helpful in a sense. although a part of me was escaping and refusing to think abt the whole issue, the moral support and jus being there to make me less depress, i appreciate it.

austin's leaving tmr for 2 months.. hm.. cant help but was overcome by a sense of loss.. this guy has become a part of my life, indispensable. jus like elaine and raymond.. my inspiration will be far from me for a while. n term 2 TVC.. no model!! hahaa.. but even if he's ard i cant possibly get him to "star" again.. imagine my FYP.. when displaying all my year's work.. its all austin's face. hahaaaa..... well.. this drinking kaki gonna be missing for 2 months. my liver will be pretty relieve. hahaaa... but AUSTIN TAN! the mongolian vodka is still waiting to be finished!!! n u might be interested to know.. chris (elaine's bf) has a polish vodka to share... r u excited? hahaaa.. we'll be waiting for u to return to our nights of endless drinkings.. thou 2nite's farewell dinner was without the main character.. everyone will miss u while u r away so u better get ur ass back here soon. hehee...

jus saw e pictures we took during our sentosa trip.. whoosh! nice!!!!...... i'm gonna put them all together and send for print soon. most of them were nice! thou i got burnt tat day (when i'm trying not to get tan).. ya i still fell asleep at the beach under e scorching sun along the coastline.. so i'm back to the tan claudia with ugly tanlines.. so SKII can forget abt making money from me.. hur hur....

its 21st aug.. june and rudy's leaving in less than a month! my goodness... i felt time flies too fast this yr. well perhaps for e same reason i should jus hang in there n press on for another 2 months + 4 months..

oh my dear raymond is falling in love.. AAwwww.... this pretty girl was my pri schmate.. dunno each other but i met her at e print shop e other day.. pretty girl.. n according to ray she's nice.. i certainly hope things work out for this dearest brother-cum-buddy of mine.. raymond!! dont freak out n get too emotional ok.. take it slow n easy.. U CAN DO IT!... believe in urself and jus be yourself n let nature take its course.. we're behind u alllllll the way! :D