Hello there folks! I wonder if anyone missed me at all. Hee...

Time flies. The festive season is over. In fact the moment it's over i fell sick, almost "as usual".. Haha.. Some pictures will be posted later to mark my chinese new year.. Let's see wat i've been up to these days..

- Fell really sick since saturday and still recovering..
- I started practicing hot yoga just before CNY..
- I've been busy acting as wedding planner together with my sis..
- My job search hasn't been fruitful but i'm taking things easy..
- I finally got my savings plan drawn up!
- My faithful N70 has finally bid me goodbye *sigh* (rest in peace my dear!)..
- Still in the process of "dating" my K800i..
- I'm torn deciding to buy myself a Coach bag or not.. *BIG SIGH*

Ok! I haven really been a good girl cos i'm really dying to buy myself a Coach bag and i've been talking abt for some years. Wanted to just get a wristlet to replace the present one, end up i got hooked onto their spring collection. Like both designs so much! ARGH... "Should i part with my cash??" I hear the angel and devil within me screaming at each other again...


Just how many ladies out there can resist them? Ok i'm exaggerating.. But i really want them. Sobz.. but i have a graphic tablet waiting for me on the buying list. And i know it's more practical to get that cos it's for work.. I cannot afford to buy both. Tablet is abt 600 bucks.. Sobz..

Actually i really shouldn't be distracted with my shopping desires.. i have a pile of work waiting for me to clear and i'm jus sitting on it. (i'm still trying to be sick! :P ) Okie i better quickly post pictures and get down to my readings. Yoga at 10am tmr.. yipee!

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year, 大年初一.. Here's wishing everyone have a properous and smooth sailing year ahead. May there be happiness and good health always. It's a long weekend. Hope everyone take the chance to have a good break and spend quality time with your family and loved ones.

Time flies. This is the 23rd Chinese New Year in my life and i am amazed how different it is year after year..

When i was a kid, was living in a 4 room flat in Clementi. My family was less well doing and life was pretty simple. The eve of New Year, there will always be praying to the 天公. So a big table would be set up right in the middle of my living room and all the offerings will then be placed on it. In the middle of the night i'd get out of bed just to go steal teochew soft candy which kinda extinct already today. Hehe.. tat's why i am chubby all my life la! Cant resist food. Hee..

CNY was much simpler then. When i moved on Bukit Timah at 8, my dad's business did well (that was before the financial crisis.) and i remember our CNY dinner was often at chinese restaurants or hotels. Everyone would be dressed up for the ocassion.. Shortly after that i moved at 10 again to my current resident.. CNY has been pretty elaborated and cos of dad's involvement with temple manegements, every year there will be lion dance at my place, to start the year off bustling and lively. There were some years that we decided to travel, once to europe and another few times to australia to visit my aunt in Sydney.

Recent years, esp after my mum became less mobile, we travelled less and even our daily lives became simple. CNY dinners were kept to minimal hassle. Kinda felt the real meaning of CNY gets forgotten year after year.. Now that my sis dont live with me anymore, CNY eve has became jus another night with the only difference is that we have dinner together as a family. Most of the other times we pack and eat at different time...

I'm not sure why i'm talking abt all these. There's no objective. Perhaps jus wanna share my thoughts while i reminisce about childhood and the happier times..

As days go by, the time we spend with our loved ones just seemed lesser and lesser. Like how my clique of buddies always make it a point to visit Chinatown together b4 CNY just to get the festive mood.. We missed it this year cos everyone is busy and we cant arrange a day where everyone else is free. Nevertheless we're still gonna catch up on Monday to go visiting and have steamboat at Elaine's place.. I'm so looking forward. Quality time with them are getting so little i have to treasure every single minute even more.

Till my next post with all the pictures, here's wishing everyone have a great time this season and cheers~!


p.s. Overeating is common this period of time, given the amount of mouth watering confectionaries that awaits us. Word of advise is to eat in moderation and drink lots of plain water and load up on greens and fruits to stay in da pink of health..

Had dinner at this Palestinian Cafe at Bagdhad street.. Roast lamb shank tat's enough for 3 person to share! My sis, jane n i had the Arabic bread with dips.. another Roast chicken and 2 desserts.. Simply heavenly!

These are my Valentines' gifts this year.. Hehe... Who says u have to be attached to be loved? :P

:: My love and hate for media ::

Media has become such a big part of life for u n me. TV.. Radio.. Internet.. I love the media, perhaps all other day of the year.. BUT i just simply hate it during special occasions, like today - Valentine's Day.

No i'm not eating sour grapes. I'm happily single.

Just give me a break! Every channel on radio is flooded with love messages and advertisements. I just need a channel that plays some good music n jus a bit less of those love messages.. it's proven to be this hard. I thought tuning to Newsradio938 would have been better.. Alas! I just cant run away from this event can i?

N it's not just about Valentine's. I remember this applies for National day as well. It kinda freaks me out when i didn't wanna watch the parade, but i dont really haf a choice! It was on channel 5, 8, U and i think even central.. I offed the TV n tried my luck at radio.. they were having live telecast too! n i know even if i choose to travel out, i'd still catch e telecast on TVmobile.. Oh man!

The issue here isn't about me being single or me being not patriotic. But can we just have alternative choices? surely it's not unfair to ask of 1 station to be neutral n do get pass e day as a normal day? zzz...

So for such days, all i have is my itunes/ipod as companion. Even eating out is not really recommended since it's gonna be so packed everywhere.. *headache* oh maybe McDelivery boy can be ur best friend for now too. hehee...

The past few days i've been wanting to post something here, but been too busy writing my assignments... n finally i've got them over and done with to get pass the festive season without too much pain..

I think this always happens. E moment i get over with work, i fall sick. I went to bed at 8am this morning and i woke up with gastric pain at noon. ARGH! n i have an interview to see through later in the evening.. *ZZzzzz....*

There are quite alot that i wanna talk abt.. but somehow it's not a nice thing to publicise my family's "dirty laundry". I'm so tired mentally these days at times i found tears swimming in my eye even when i'm out walking on e streets. Sometimes it freaks me a bit cos i'm scared to ever sink back to depression. So i mus live my life most positively to counterattack that!

So far, my job search has making slow progress.. No response after interviews yet. But i do have another scheduled next week after today's. So hopefully i land myself a good job with good prospects.

I am super duper broke already... shucks man.. n the best thing is cos of all e shit at home, my finances are all FROZEN.. n no i didn't even commit crimes to get that. Sucks..

After my interview this morning, i went to clarke quay to take a walk, before i decided to head to the nail salon to give my toes a fresh coat of paint for the festive season coming right up!

Nice? Chose a bright red base and polka dot nail art. Hehe...

Before i start writing my essays, let me post some pictures..

Today i brought my mum out to buy new year goodies and massage.. Head off to clarke quay, wanted to study a bit since i brought my notes along.. As usual i went up to studio to disturb. hehe.. but partly also to return jacque his thumbdrive.

So so.. I received my free dinner there, a chicken shepard's pie from the famous Don's personal pie club. Hehe.. It's really yummy, cos it was still piping hot!

It makes a really sumptuous meal cos it has a layer of mashed potato on top, pepper chicken stew as filling.. Also contains bits of carrots and green peas.. It's superb!


I'm gonna miss working at this little studio la.. Hopefully my next job has a fantastic boss too! n hopefully less bitchy aunties pls.. Thanks!

ARGH! I really should have just post the picture of my new pair of shoes and talk abt our (laine n me) little shopping trip tonight.. Instead, my itchy fingers ran through the old posts and suddenly my world became a little grey....

Anyway this is what i bagged from Central tonight.. for first day of chinese new year! Someone told me wearing new shoes on day 1 of CNY will ward off people who tries to sneak ard behind ur back.. Anyway whether it's true or not it doesn't really matter. It's just my perfect excuse to buy SHOES! I dig shoes.. ;)


So.. me and the old blog post.. When i run through my post from since last Jan, i cant help but relived the grey days. Sometimes the dark shadows still seem so real. I look back and realised 2006 was so messed up. Countless bad decisions messed my whole life up. Perhaps i didn't really recover from depression as i thought. Cos i saw days of me when i was so confused, yet i thought i was right.. Maybe the D monster did somehow played a part why my relationship failed. Maybe i didn't work hard enough. But ACTUALLY all these doesn't matter anymore. I'm not dwelling on the past anymore. Believe me. I just thought there should be something i could learn from the mistakes i've made.. i jus wish 2007 i could be better.

With regards to my job hunting the past week, i've received some positive replies. So i really hope by the time i turn 23 officially, i will be contributing to the household and not just taking all the time. I also look forward to a more permanent job, and i'm glad i feel i'm going to be up to it and definitely looking forward to career advancements within the next couple of years.. (though a bit too early to say now.)

Some things (i'm telling myself) i've learnt hard and well.. 2006 has been bumpy cos i did not set goals for myself. I couldn't see the way so i lost directions. For relationship, i know i will never ever give up on it again so easily. No room for regrets in life. You just gotta think things through before you act the next time. Dont try to imagine how things would have been if you had hold on, if you wait till u see direction, etc.. Don't dwell on the past. It's enough to be doing your best for the future. For work, you need to be more active and put words into action. It's ok to start all over. After all a 9-5 job is a whole different environment from working at home. Time to tackle the sleep issue!

Been having diarrhea for the past few days.. Surely no one likes falling sick. Just tummyache makes me feel a little weak. I slept at 9pm and woke up at 1230am.. Then continued watching "One Litre of Tears"..

I'm never really a TV kinda person, but recently i've been pretty caught up with drama seriels. As far as possible i'd catch “金枝玉叶” on Channel U every weekday night.. n now over the weekend i've been obssessed with the teary japanese drama. When Rayner said he cried alot watching it, I didn't quite believed it. Being someone who chuckles quietly in the cinema when everyone was weeping away at Titanic, i thought i was kinda a sadist. Or rather when i was told the drama was about a girl who falls sick, immediately i relate it to some sad love story and evetually she dies with her lover by her bedside kinda stereotypical storyline..

But i'm so caught up now cos the line of this story is great! The fighting spirit of this girl.. i'm nt sure if it's a real life story, but the director did a good job in relaying the courage, optimism and passion of a person, losing the ability we abled people often take for granted. Of course i kind of relate well to the show cos i saw the bonding of my family in the show.. how families will never abandon u in times of trial. Definitely there are exceptions.. so i'm jus glad i have a family that provided for me not jus materially but also life lessons not everyone gets to go through.

My weekend has been relatively productive, even though i didn't complete much of my assignments. Coming week i must work consistently cos i have 2 submissions next Mon and Tues. I spent saturday clearing my room a bit. Now i got my very messed up corner sorted out. My table looks more condusive for me to do my studies.. The start of a brand new week tomorrow means i will send out even more resumes and hopefully i land myself a good job soon. Last night i did spring cleaning for my laptop. Free up about 2G of space, restored my ipod and shifted most of the old photos and working files into it. Also sorted out some files, esp my uni stuffs. Now my desktop is clutter-free and definitely more organised.. Easier to get work done also.

These days i feel i've accomplished so much more than i have had in the past few years. From the day i changed my perspective and moved on, i feel my life has become more wholesome. I appreciate the little things in life, the things we take for granted all our lives. I am able to identify with my weaknesses and i make a conscious effort to be better.. Thank God for that.

I hope i dont wake up too late tomorrow and get some work done..

I've been looking for a job actively for the past week, but to no avail. Somehow i question my self worth and saw the urgency to update my portfolio. Almost 1 year and i haven added a new piece of work? Tat's shameful.

Last week someone stunned me with a question. "What is the current advertising trend?" I was thrown off the edge. I'm not sure how to answer that and i've been looking for some answers.. Google has been a great pal of mine.. Gave me some answers. Bagged a few magazines to update myself on the trends as well..

So.. I realised the more i learn, e more i realise how little i know. No wonder learning is a life long journey.. It's exciting though! I'm looking forward to a new working environment, leave my comfort zone and i hope 2007 be really fruitful. I feel positive cos i guess i procrastinate less now. Well still procrastinating.. but i'm making improvements!

Finally realised it really isn't easy looking for a job. It's funny cos when i look back, it seems all previous jobs i landed myself on were either by chance, or by recommendation by friends. I must take the chance to thank those who believed in me and gave me jobs without even making me go through the pains of writing cover letters and customising my CV for every application i make. So job hunting is this tough and i never really knew?? Oh man.. to think i've been working for the past almost 4 yrs, with an agency or as a freelance..

After vetting through an advertising mag, i'm excited about going back to my line of work again. I'm glad i haven lost the passion. But i do see i have alot to learn, and i really look forward to a chance to be presented to me. Somehow i am right about the advertising scene in thailand. Indeed it's catching up. I've been saying i might wanna give it a shot working there. But the time is not ripe yet. Like my classmate austin, i'm so looking forward to graduation so that we can kickstart an all different career from there..

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It just sucks cos i've been having diarrhea tonight and it's 3.30am now, and still not stopping. ARGH!