FRee EXpression

It seems a long time. Well not that long. Perhaps its jus one of the rare days I have alot to rant about. Or rather i seem to have all the time in the world.

I found myself circling around the same old spot for months. I'm finally jus about to break out like a cocoon morphing to a butterfly. I still get choked up here and there. Yet i guess i'll find my way out somehow. I cant remember how i gained my confidence - the way i was fearless n irregardless of the bullshit some fellow human beings can churn.

Its still apparent i'm holding back about joining a new group of people n blending into a new environment. At times i feel i'm lagging way too much behind. I wanna catch up. But always seem drawn back by my gutless soul. I tried ignoring it. Thou at times i still circum to it.




Shyt. It always happens. I thought i have alot to say. Then my mind jus goes blank and the sleep monster seem to overcome me. Anyway i'm gonna have a good day out with my 2 dearies.. elaine n june.. hopefully i return with lots of new pictures to post. I've been Pic-Less for a while.. Time to buck up!

Being able to get this post online is such a great relief to me.

My dear G5 couldn't power up since saturday morning due to the thunderstorm. Didn't even get the chance to backup any files. How horrifying can that be?

We urbaners are so attached to our IT gadgets we feel totally handicapped when something goes wrong. Or perhaps its jus me. Leaving home without my ipod makes my day out gloomy.. Dont even mention my mobile phone. It stores my schedules, directions, reminders n the list goes on forever. Bet anyone can associate with the agony of the lost of mobile phones. Its like your world crumbles and your life reformatted. Ok i exaggerated.

And so. Now i'm back to the wired life. Burnt a whole 2.3K off my daddy.. oops! I'm not the proud owner of the latest macbook. This sleek looking machine is 1 neat stuff... ;)

Life has been pretty stagnant. I'm looking forward to some nice works now that i can get down to writing my journey of depression. Keep ur eyes wide open while i battle my next health battle..

while this space is getting dusty.. i'm jus too busy to post something for the past 10 days. work at the book fair in suntec was filled with all sorts of strange customers, from plain wierd to cheapskates to the rich n humble n the think they're rich n snobbish.. hell of an experience. after a bit of complains here n there, it was overall fun n enjoyable.

so wat's up emotionally? strangely now tat i dont have to work, i'm a little blank today. feels a bit empty. but i suppose life has been good. realised i'm stronger.. happier.. n recovered. i knew i had e ability to differentiate depression and jus plain "down". i'm glad i'm back on track. i hope i wont be looking back too much.

ok a little update on wat's been going on with me..

... rest n relax @ Bintan with my bestest buddies 2 weeks ago ...
... returned with an injured knee ...
... am still procrastinating to do check up on my thyroids ...
... work work work ...

n wat's up next?

... hopefully more work ...
... looking forward to junie's return in 2 weeks!! ...
... SHOP ... EAT ... TALK! ...

... clear application for studies ...

n hopefully i fly off by next feb!

... n yet another getaway alone somewhere ...