Pictures..

Noticed this blog is getting wordy.. well pictures time!!

First day of Chinese New Year... Mahjong Night...!!!








Shimbashi Soba.. Located at basement of Paragon, they serve handmade soba and udon noodles.. Dinner e other night, after visiting mum, was lovely! Gobbled dinner n forgot abt pictures.. but anyway e main attractions are DESSERTS!!







Next time i go again i'll remember to snap e ultra chewy soba!!

CHEERS ppl... to a lovelier new 2006...

n its ending off with e ultra vain me. hahaaa....

Happy New YEAR!!

Gonna keep this Short n Sweet, Sugary and Nice... :D

its chinese new year's eve.. bet everyone is busy preparing for the great reunion dinner.. i hope retail therapy earlier this wk was great... so everyone has new clothes already? well at least i manage to get 2 dresses last minute yesterday. heee.... no one else can haf excuse to be busy n nt shopping k cos i made time in e midst of e mad stress to SHOP n RELAX...

gotta go prepare my great reunion dinner now..

wishing everyone a very prosperous new year... be in the best of health (cos nothing beats tat..) may everyone's career be smooth and uprising.. make big money!!! *CHEERS*

i hate disturbed pattern sleep.. makes me even more tired than before.. kept having dreams and illusions when i try to sleep. by e time i really get into sleep mode, it was probably dawn. dear left me to sleep in at his place. next moment i opened my eyes it was 10am. e rest of e day was a mad rush..


with only 30 bucks in my wallet, i survived my day tat was filled with deadly temptations.

cos i was late, took cabbie down to hospital - 8 bucks.
sis n i ate at sushi tei.. i contributed 10 bucks..
to make up for paying less for lunch, i paid for mum's fruit smoothie + ice cream - 8 bucks..

and with 4 bucks in my wallet... n no credit cards to talk abt...

i visited the following boutiques:

POA.. lots of clothes i wanna try. i fought off e temptation.
Clothes Publisher..
Island Shop..
GG>5.. cant believe after months their collection remained stagnent.. *shake head*
Blush!... Princess Tam Tam.. 169 for a piece of undergarment. would u??
TopShop...
Guess... (sis did e shopping while oogled..)
Zara...

so proud of myself... hahahaaaaa.....
i'm so tired i'm gonna sleep now.. n look forward to a nice relaxing day with dearie.. *cheers to off days!*

as i read my previous post, im upset with myself... wat's up with being pissed off with my mum? now i wish she'd get outta bed to piss me off once again. i'd be pretty glad..

as i'm typing away, my mum's lying in e hospital, semi conscious.. saturday nite, was up till 3am, watched over her all e while. decided to turn in at 3.. yet dad found mum in a pool of blood at 6am sunday morning. she fell and cut e corner of her left eye. 9 stitches to tat. sent to A&E immediately. i should haf chose to kept vigil all the way.

when things choose to go wrong, it always happen in a string. much as i wanted to return to e hospital yesterday afternoon, the bloody UTI(tract infection) returned to me. made me so sick i couldn't do anything but to rush home for medication. later at night, doc recommended me to seek a urologist for scanning of kidney stones.

its wk 4 of school. i've done nothing at all. do i still intend to graduate?

i have a meeting tmr night with my agenda list filled to e brim. can i still work on?

man i'm feeling faint... wat do i tackle first? n how? God i need a sign pls...

Bedtime story...

right.. moments after my tantrum throwing mood.. finally calmed down and thinking logically (i guess..)

haf my hi-fi tuned to class95, at the same time, i haf bone thug and bigge running on itunes.

my life is jus like this exactly. 2 songs running at e same time. no matter how melodious and beautiful each song is, when mixed together, u get noise..

by the time i chose to shut itunes, e music on radio changed to something thrashy. tat's how strange life is. sometimes u make a wrong decision. then u get thrash. u feel "DAMN! i should haf.. blah blah black sheep..." but in life there's no turning back. no time for lamtenting. i'll jus wait for this thrashy song to end. cos no matter how long it seems like forever, it WILL end.. jus like any misfortune. it will be over. time will heal and better times will come..

but know wat? the previous thrashy song ended. then came another thrashy song. in fact worse than e previous.
"oh man! wat has life became.. i thought e nicer times will come after e rain..."

well no one can guarantee when e better time will come. but i'm positive it will. (while e thrashy song is still running in e bkgrd)... so moral of e story?

"with a worse event tat occurs, u realise e previous bile fruit ain't tat thrashy after all.. u appreciate and was glad u've walked thru to realise there's worse shit.. wat's impt is to learn e lesson n move on..."

n guess wat? i'm right... finally a nice song on radio.. "something abt you" by five for fighting. *phew*

life is still b-e-a-u-tiful... (esp with e right one to calm n soothe me.. *AAHHhh...* wat else can i ask for?)










actually all e above shit is derived from the fact tat i'm jus darn lazy to move my fat ass to off e radio la... muahahaaa.....

FUCKED UP

feeling totally fucked up now. a sudden burst. probably a contained one. this burst of anger got ignited by my MUM. then everything comes bursting at me.

i've been running away from reality. coped up in my comfort zone. n darn! it has to burst today. n i'm letting it all go. forget abt inner peace, self contained, watever shit. i'm jus gonna let it all come n hopefully i clear my clogged up brain!

cold n wet afternoon never fails to relate to the emotional and sensual side of me..

wat's up for this afternoon? i jus realised i haven set any resolutions for this year. have reflected on myself for umpteen times. wat haf i learnt abt myself anyway..

its always e case of "i know wat's wrong"... the hardest is always the changing part. how do i instill discipline in myself?

haf always been the carefree soul.. its hard for me to settle down. i really dont like wat i'm doing now. and i seriously hate forcing myself doing things i dont wanna do. yet bagged on each one of us, are bags of responsibilities.. esp towards my parents. how can i let them and let myself down by giving up now?

i believe in mind over body. yet my mind ain't strong enough to push myself jus to concentrate for the coming 4 months. time jus kept ticking away. no one can help me unless i help myself. i wish i can stop questioning and get cracking.

i kept hearing ppl telling me i'm strong.. i believe so. yet believing is jus not sufficient.

i'm feeling lost and aimless. i see my goal n finishing line. yet i'm jus frozen on e spot. its my final lap but my feet are stuck to the ground. much as i know i need to move, i cant. my heart dont wanna move on. i'm tempted to stray off this track. to explore the possibilities and opportunities that lurks afar.. this track will still be ard for me to return. but is it all worth it? i know hanging on for another few months n i can choose whatever path tat is given to me without the liability of coming back on this track again. oh God! can u pls guide my way and give me e strength i need to continue trotting this disgusting path?

Dessert Cafe...



Visited this pretty unique hong kong dessert cafe along river valley road.. (near to zion road hawker center)...

nice shop with great decor.. pretty "chinois".. peranakan kinda feel..

they sell hong kong styled kinda dessert.. hot n cold.. haf other main courses like "chey zai mien" and thick toast.. sorry i was too engrossed eating i forgot to snap food. hahaa.. anyway i had this "combi" dessert.. sesame paste and almond paste mixed. not bad.. i'll give it 6.5 outta 10. ordered thick toast with peanut butter n condensed milk.. its a sin! but pretty worth it. hehee.. price is kinda reasonable. nt sure how much exactly thou..

well next door is this supposedly famous nasi padang. i was sitting outdoor n i smell e chicken rendang n satay.. whoosh! swept me off e floor!! so anyone wanna go savour with me soon?? make appointment with my secretary ok... hahaa....

Friday the 13th

Its friday the 13th.. BEWARE!

my day started off with dreams.. i fell back to sleep after dear woke me up at 730am. bad choice for being lazybones! thus i'm "rewarded" with a freaking bad nightmare. dreamt He left me for good.. when i saw his back turn, i woke up to reality with dad knocking on e door. i haf to thank dad for bringing sense to me once again. hahaa.. anyway my pillow was wet. i woke up with a bigger headache and a stiff neck! shucks...

thankfully my sensitive guy gave me his reassurance once again.. *phew*

ok i'm getting outta my comfort zone today.. agenda for today:

1) SET THINGS RIGHT! work is in a total mess. its time to get it in order.

2) Do my laundry when i get back. more than a week! i'm almost running outta clothes.

3) To make up for my unacceptable behavious, i'll work extra hard. I'll get at least 2 mood boards and proposals done up nicely and do a personal consultation with my lecturer on monday.

YEPZ! im out to set things right. hope the friday the 13th curse dont work its spells on me... ciao for now! its finally a bright n sunny day.. maybe even catch rainbow after e rain? hehee...

it feels good to start e day bright n cheery! :D

Lazy Gourmet

Was @ Lazy Gourmet (by les amis), Shaw centre e other day with elaine.. i love e food n ambient there.. food is reasonably pricey.. but HEY! u'll jus wanna return there again n again...

one of e quiet spots in town tat serves quality food.

The interior.. Quiet n peaceful, away from e crowds of orchard...

Linguine alla Marinara.. One of e best i've tasted..

Elaine's order.. Caesar Salad..

The Nutella Pie tat's to die for..

*Picture Credit goes to Dear's N70..*

Feeling emotional today.

My wednesday was planned as such i was going to collect my medical report in e morning, then head for dental appointment at 1130. afterwhich meet elaine to catch up. i told u plans never work the way i wanted it to be.

i woke up with a sweet surprise. dear says he'll accompany me to the clinic to pick up my report. had been e longest time since someone accompanied me to e docs.. n i truly appreciate e effort.. i cancelled dental appointment due to budget contrain.. this month is truly tight.. sigh...

i'm utterly upset. i haf so much to say, yet dunno where to begin. i made austin angry cos of some dumb things i've done. my mind has been in a complete blank. i cant think, much as i wanted to come home to self reflect and think things through. i guess at e end of it, my biggest weakness - indecisiveness.. softhearted..

i regret doing the wrong things.. i wanna make things right... i'm willing to put in my 101% to build e trust again..

Finally a little time to do some personal stuffs like updating blogs and writing emails...

Had an eventful sunday.. Was pouring the whole night and i found myself waking up to a swimming pool. YES.. swimming pool.. my room was flooded with water cos drainage got clogged up at my balcony and water flowed into my room. u dont wanna imagine e damage. *SIGH*

Some unpleasant issue went on in e evening.. totally traumatizing in fact. It makes me ponder much abt human. who says ghost are e evil lot? humans are much more horrible when they forgot how to control their emotions... when anger gets the better of u, it definitely aint a nice sight. all i can say it saddens me alot, but also glad i realised things for myself.

haven been in the best of mood these days. apparently my dear frens aren't doing too well.

raymond had chicken pox. can tell he's totally miserable being quarantined at home.. the itch.. i cant remember how it's like suffering from pox but he has some in his ears.. ARGH... poor thing rite.. dear raymond trust me i feel ur discomfort too!

elaine... my bestest friend.. where have u been? she's been missing in action. nursing her wounds? been busy with school? i dunno.. i haven even seen her online. n everytime i ask she says she's fine.. i'm upset cos my twin is upset..

it has been raining so much these days.. so cold.. kinda adds up to the melocholic mood.. everyone should jus tuck under blankie, sit next to window and sip hot chocolate la...

well everyone keep warm n keep cuddling...

n some pictures.. realise i haven uploaded those taken when my buddies came over on xmas day n KTV.. guys pics will be up on shared album real soon.. hang on!

Has been some time since i've came into this space. Its time to do some spring cleaning for the coming Chinese New Year...

First of all, my heartful wishes to all my dearest buddies, friends and anonymous readers.. May this new 2006 be smooth and peaceful. May everyone be in the pink of health and be in happiness and bliss.. I was on the verge of losing someone very very dear to me last yr. So everyone heed my words, treasure wat u haf in ur life right now. Some things.. once u lose it, no amount of tears will bring it back...

Technically, work has been pretty smooth for me till now. thou i'm stressed up cos i barely haf time for anything. Not even time to see my dearest buddies and snap pictures like i used to do.. but i'm glad my rice bowl is still there. School has started. I'm under immensed stress cos i'm going through a mental block when it comes to school. i jus cant think... how? I'm still sitting n waiting for inspiration to come to me..

My dear friends will know i was in an emotional turmoil earlier. shan't go into details but i know most will be happy for me to know what i spent almost an entire yr waiting for.. has became my reality.. effort paid off? i guess so.. i'm taking things slowly. one thing is claudia cant make up her mind and cant make decisions. how? i let time do its job.. with time, things will become stable.. things becomes clearer.. and of cos the right path to take will surface..

wat right path u're asking?

i've applied for an arts institution in New york.. but i'm still thinking to go overseas or not.. my family commitment is the major issue.. how can i leave at this point of time? yet opportunity waits for no man.. there's alot of dilemma.. n of cos now tat i haf my "other half" to consider... so which path? well fret not.. let God show me the way...

many times in our life we make mistakes.. we hurt people and get hurt in return.. i hate hurting anyone cos it hurts me twice as hard as i've inflicted the pain.. being emotional is wat makes and breaks me. my indecisiveness causes hurt. someone pls wake me up and give me an idea on wat to do?

well 2006 started in a not too nice picture for me. but i'm gonna make it through and make my memories of it beautiful..