oooookk.. im freezing in e office.. 815am. wat am i doing here? i should be in bed. zzzz....

haf nothing to do. so i tot i'll rant a little. anyway i cant resist laying on hands on a powerbook. heheee..

haf pics to upload for a nite out yesterday but tt gotta wait till i get home. but e night was great.. met up with jeff n his mauritian friend chris.. i never knew mauritius' population was 98% indians and 2% chinese. its nice to know something u dunno. now i'm more knowledgable. haha..

ok i've been thrashy since very very early this morning. i talk alot of crap. went to work with austin and i think i kinda shocked him with my stupidity. something like this came outta my mouth when he was telling me abt e courses he's attending for his work. i said, "so as long as u sit for the exams, dont haf to pass also can clear is it..." u can imagine he jus stare at me with his eyes big big. wat kinda shit is tat? i also dunno. i cant stop laughing at myself too. i amaze myself at times. well how often do u see me going to work at 730am?!?! claudia's brain only function after 12mn la!

back to e outing. anyway was back at cafe iguanas.. we tried a "macho margarita" n i love it! pics come later. u should see the huge cocktail glass they serve in. i like it.. maybe steal 1 home e next time. heheee... anyway i didn't even drink alot last nite. thou cab driver commented i reek of alcohol. mus admit i was floating by the time i reach buddy's place. even gotta get him come downstairs pick me? i was "burning" when i lie in bed. n obviously i didn't sleep well e whole night. woke up at 4am with headache n feeling nauseas. i cant tell if its hangover or i'm jus having headache.. anyway guess claudia's no more an alcoholic. for the better i guess.. drinking is bad. it kills ur sex drive quite a bit. trust me on tat.

oh well i got invites to some private event at DB next tuesday.. free flow! shit la.. did i jus say drinking is bad? hahaa...

its tough blogging with a heavy heart. u jus cant seem to find the right word for anything.

has been many days tat i wanted to blog something.. wanted to talk abt my sunday with my "ah bengs".. shopping.. my wishlist and presents to buy for my dearies.. lots n lots.. but guess today was pretty depressing for me to talk abt e happy stuffs. i'll update e happiness another time when i'm in e right mood.

well 1 of my dearie is in debts and i'm feeling the huge load in my heart too. reminds me of a similar incident few yrs back, when i lost someone dear to the wretched evil habit of gambling..

when it comes to money, u see the disgusting side of ppl u call "friends". unfortunate there's always some humans who jus turns nasty e moment money is concern. have seen enough cases of broken friendships due to money. why? being someone who will never ever fall out with friends on money issue, i simply cannot understand why anyone could give up friendship in the pursuit of money. i'm not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. its jus tat i've been taught human relationships are priceless.

limit. its a complicated thing. we always lose track of our limit. some ppl lose track of their ability to gamble. so when they lose, they double up their stake in hope of recovering their loss. in e midst they lost their senses too. tat's bullshit. i hate it. im not against gambling. once in a while i'd love a game of mahjong or for the sake of "fun" esp during CNY. but when u gamble beyond ur limit n wish to strike it rich overnight, buggers u can dream on. there's no free lunch in this world.

wat's my limit when it comes to helping a fren? i always haf e tendency to go overboard to share the loads of my love ones. i should remember the few lessons i've been through. the many times my money goes out n never comes back.. i should learn how to solve my own problems first before i meddle with others. i should use my brains a bit more.

i need more of my dearies to put me back on e right track. i cant jus go to the extreme all e time. not this time. much as i was tempted to get cash from my fren first to help my fren out, i guess i should not.. thou its verbally agreed he wont charge interest. then again there's no free lunch. n also i cant afford this personal favour. guess jeff is right when he reminded me abt limit. i appreciate it. i should retain more sanity.

much as it really hurts me to see a fren in trouble and i cant offer more to help, guess i'll haf to let life work itself out. for me, things always somehow manages to work itself out. the way always appears in front of me. i'd haf to pray things work out well for my buddy too.. keeping my fingers crossed things work out soon and definitely learn the lessons well and haf a clearer vision of who u can call ur frens n who's not.

oh n dont get me wrong. this whole issue revolves ard gambling. but i guess e relieve thing for me to know is tat my buddy ain't e one tat started this gambling shit. aiya complicated la. but i'd say if he's the one tat gets into trouble cos he gambled over his limit, i'll probably jus leave him to rot.

well trust is build over a long time while broken at a split second.. dont take friends for granted. dont break the trust they had in u cos once its broken, it'll never be mended. even forgiven, things will never be the same again.

Cruise along...

Ain't really in the mood to post today but i tot i'd jus load e pics and jus quickly screen through.

Arrive at the cruise centre at 230pm. waiting area was packed with japanese ladies and kids.. i thought i headed for a wrong function. anyway waiting area was like a fashion show. i was busy spotting labels. it wasn't tat hard. dior, chanel, hermes, tots, bottega, coach, gucci, LV, burberry etc.. IT WAS ALL AROUND! oh japanese jus love labels...

anyway due to the organizer's poor organization skills, we waited a good hr, jus standing ard in a crowded area, with no announcements, no notices of wat's happening next. finally after clearing the customs, we got ushered to the auditorium on board. the long awaited speech was amazing. it was in JAPANESE. sheeezzz....

proceeded to tour the ship. i'm not impressed. i haven been on a cruise ship my whole life. but i'm not impressed. i jus dont haf an affinity with ships i guess. i'd rather backpack or spend my time digging for treasures in Chatuchak! anyway the tour was poorly organized too. the guide was rushing through the places he's suppose to show us, totally ignoring wats happening behind him. there was an old lady. throughout e tour i was brisk walking. of cos e old lady disappeared halfway. i'm totally nt interested anyway. e basic cabins were suffocating. no windows, low ceilings. someone with claustrophobic like me will die inside there. the suites were nice. but ridiculously expensive. so either i die or i burst my card. now wat?

i'm probably this negative cos i'm not in a good mood la. perhaps i exaggerated on e frustrations. but still, i didn't like anything onboard, except for the tea reception. food was not bad. we got a nice seat right at the front of the ship. nice view. other than tat, i'd say i haf no affinity with ships. none at all.





Had been eating less meat these days.. kinda feel it calms me a bit. i'm less edgy. less tantrums. perhaps its psychological. i dunno. but anyway it helps with my diet.. this is my rather healthy dinner.. vegeterian fried rice and yoghurt..



i'm in a "pouty" mode today cos i'm not well and i cant get to sleep. it makes me vulnerable emotionally n yearns a bit more for love. sobz.. i'm tired. i'm running a fever. i'm having bodyache.. i shiver when im burning.. my eyes are swollen. my nose is bleeding. tell me something worse than this?

past few days has been pretty unsmooth for me but emotionally i'm pretty fine.

went over to buddy's place to crash in on tuesday night cos i haf a meeting at 7am on wednesday morning. sounds crazy? i thought so. but didn't haf a choice. work comes first ya? anyway print house is within walking dist from buddy's place... so tat means sleeping in a bit more than if i slept at home. who knows.. i woke up at 4am n joined in watching soccer match btw ManU and Villareal... unfortunately its a 0-0 match. had this feeling right from e start.. n i'm proven to be accurate! haha.. Villareal wasted damn alot of time i mus say.. ok enough. this is not soccernet.com.

anyway.. it was a rainy morning. we decided to haf a quick breakfast at Mac b4 we both head for work. my mobile has been cranky for a while now. i didn't get boss' msg tat meeting was CANCELLED.. SHIT! i hate tat feeling.. esp when i'm already prepared for presentation. well wat to do? i'm still professional n nice. i'll still smile... :D anyway breakfast was good cos i haven had it for a while.. n best part its complimentary?? nah.. its e company. hahaa.. (thou complimentary still plays a part! :P)

e moment i got home at 745am, spoke to mum a bit, then started working on my storyboard. meeting clients at 1pm.. was feeling tired and sick and the cabbie made is worse. he prob thought he was f1 driver and sped his way all the way from my place to bt merah. sheeezz.. i almost threw up i swear! anyway my meeting with client didn't go on too fine cos apparently i lost my account. kinda upset but still i guess its for the better. i cant possibly rush my flash designer to get an animation out for me in less than 48 hrs.. the worst thing tat had to happen was to haf my mobile line cut cos i didn't foot my bill.. *oops!* this is embarrassing..

anyway i headed to V tea room to relax my brain a bit n also to do some reflective work. sorted out my finances too.. well.. alot of reflective work indeed.. anyway by 4pm i'm already tired to e max.. i tot of taking cab home but i figured i max my budget so i gotta be good n took train instead. i almost black out on e train. i still make my way home alive thou.. and u thought i'd sleep immediately? the craziest thing i did was to scrub my toilet and vacuum the house and cleared my messed up room. it was major workout to scrub the toilet i tell u.. i crashed at 730pm all the way to 2am when buddy woke me up. i grab some yoghurt and honey water. talked till 3am and went back to sleep all the way to 12pm today. i realised i slept for soooo long cos i was running a fever. *sigh*

i'm going back to sleep again soon cos medi is making me drowsy. i haf a long day tmr too. haf a meeting to catch at 7am. i hope this time its confirmed! then interview at 11am.. and i'm heading on a cruise event at 230pm.. await my pictures dude! meanwhile here's some loads on the makings of my "slightly successful" coffee cheesecake..

take care everyone.. load up on ur greens and H2O.. bring ur brollies with u too. its been raining quite alot. a fortnightly weather outlook says 8 raining days for the coming 14 days.. good nitezz!! *hugz*

The honey oats crust

Chilling in progress...

The end product - Tia Maria Coffee Cheesecake!

Pictureseque...

Gonna be quite a bit of pictures to update.

Wednesday - had a long meeting that night.. ended ard 1145pm. "Princess Biatch" Sue Lynn returned from OZ.. was "booked" way ahead to haf dinner n crash on the 16th Nov. but apparently dinner became supper. I had my dinner only at past 12mn.. we decided to grab a couple of lemonate n drink vodka and jus crash out at Sue's place, which is jus a street from me.. typically things girls do: *SNAP!*

Sue's "refugee".. ever messed up room.. then again u should haf seen mine! haha..

She jus love silly shots!

Drunk?? :D

I told u Ah Sue jus love silly shots! haha..

AH!! What kinda explicit shot is this?!?!

And finally.... a nice prim n proper shot!!

Saturday - Day started really really early.. barely caught enough sleep n i had to work at 8 in e morning.. rush.. rush.. rush... Decided to try my luck by buying the "RENT" sandwich @ Spinelli's.. but nope! i didn't get to win the tickets to this musical i really wanna catch.. well jus too bad i'm seriously broke now.. so i can only dream on! sobz...

i met elaine after her exams at far east sq.. then headed to s'goon gardens to meet sue for lunch. lots of memories lunching at cafe cartel and chatting at coffee beans. that's where we used to hang out with our dear june during our secondary school days.. time flies! had been years since the last time we returned. it was jus so much to catch up on lost times and of course reminising the beautiful memories we once shared... *one tear drop*...

i decided to clear my wardrobe cos these girls jus love picking up stuffs from my pile of unwanted clothes. its funny. i'm such a horrible shopper, within the pile of unworn clothes are even some brand new stuff i've never worn.. i wonder wat "provoked" me to buy anyway. anyway elaine left my place with a huge bag of barangs, inclusive of her XIAO DING DANG!!




hehe.. after she left, we started preparing for our night out.. should haf seen how much time sue spent putting on makeup! i jus cant really be bothered.. heheee... perhaps this was the HINT! there'll be no men to lust over anway. hahaaa.... indeed true i tell u!!

we headed to Cafe Iguana at clarke quay.. its a nice place.. serves wonderful huge ass margaritas.. but SHUCKS! no men.. pathetic.. no cute men at all for us to snigger at.. gosh! e night is wasted. hehee... anyway we left at midnight and headed to liquid room. were badly disappointed with e crowd. young punks as young as probably 17 and ah lians.. *sigh* wats happening to girls these days... looking like sluts and call girls are in thing now? perhaps i really am old.. *shake head*

but i'm really glad to catch Laverne and Weiling at the "sauna-like" dance floor.. i'm very very sure i'll not return there ever again.. bad clubbing experience.. should haf stuck to Zouk! anywayz.. pictures' time!

I love these beautiful wine racks tat towers the bar counter..

We ordered a fried Burito and it came with 5 diff spice sauces.. AMAZING! but i still prefer Tabasco.. find e rest not spicy enough!

Poor Sue.. she lost a drinking game n i made her suck up the ultimate chilli sauce from her nose.
*ok jus joking... she's jus being crappy as usual!!*

Oh we heard men gets turned on with lesbian acts... IS THAT TRUE??
*Girls gone wild after a couple of shots...*

Hotels Galore..


Simply love boutique and art hotels.. Earlier on was doing shoots on several hotel rooms in singapore and i'm surprised with the findings... Cant publish my company properties here. so lets jus make do and let ur imagination run wild. hehee...

Hotel 1929..
Located at 50 Keong Saik Road.

This extremely hip hotel is so cool. if i'm not wrong, every single room is different in decor. The one i did the shoot in has an outdoor shower. Do u dare take it all off n enjoy a bath in the outdoors? I didn't get my chance to.. but i'd definitely love to spend a night there! Bold retro prints, tasteful designer chairs. how can anyone resist... suites are only at 220 a night! lovely.. did i forget to mention their service is wonderful!

The Scarlet Hotel
Located at 33 Erskine Road (opp maxwell market)

Scarlet hotel is my all time favourite.. the Passion Suite is so romantic and full of love.. did a very sensual artistic shoot there.. i wish i could spend the night there! almost 600 bucks a night.. suite comes with outdoor jacuzzi in the balcony. room is flushed in a sea of red.. lots of velvet and satin.. bed is soooooo huge... its the perfect lovers getaway... aawww... book ur room for valentine's day now!

Gallery Hotel
Located at Robertson Quay




Whenever i think abt it, i'm still excited! The observatory suite has a telescope in the room!! Its e most amazing thing.. truly artistic and creative! a nice experience... rooms were fantastic with nice river views.. room rates differ according to views. trust me its a truly nice experience.. n with cocco latte and soundbar right downstairs, its perfect to crash in after a night of crazy partying!

oh i seriously regret opting for Novotel Siam City when i was in bangkok.. recently got an email regarding an art hotel in bangkok. view the pictures to believe.. i'm definitely checking it out since the next time i travel there! each room has a totally different theme... if u are planning for a baby, trust me room 207 is JUST FOR YOU! hahaa... personally i love 407.. very much like scarlet hotel.. room 409 for its simplicity. but truth is i love the designer chair! hehee.. in fact e more i look at them, i wish i could spend a night in every one of them! whoosh!! totally swept away...

details here: http://www.reflections-thai.com/rooms.html#rooms














R u tempted to travel now?? :D

now i wonder.. jus wat do guys want?

this is wat 1 of my guy fren told me: good sex actually keeps a men.
so guys want a good looking gf, look like a schoolgirl by day, look like a women by night and behave like a whore at night? u men r sure demanding rite...

sue taught me a new word today: "friends with benefits"

those who dont get it, try looking up the "smart people's dictionary". else too bad. u dont need to know anyway. guess we should never get emotional with "friends". i should clear my head a bit...

anyway! work's coming in.. thou claude's so much a blockhead today. perhaps being caught in e rain b4 meeting has a part to play. (excuses! yes i know..) the funny thing is i cant even remember wats tat thing we shit on is called. ya layman term is call TOILET BOWL. n i was going on n on.. "wats tat shit ass thing call ah... u know.. the one u shit into... oh ya! toilet bowl.. trust me we had a great laugh at my stupidity.

anyway i'm suppose to haf dinner with sue.. but due to work, only met her at 12 midnight. i was famished i tell u.. am suppose to be drinking with her right now, but apparently she's BUSY. hehee.. its almost 4am. wat am i doing?

these days i cant sleep earlier than 5am.. am i nuts?? yes obviously.. i'm almost dozing.......................................

Dropped in at The V Tea Room this evening. Totally swept me off my feet... I tried their Baileys Cream Liqueur Teacake. suppose to be the signature cake of the signature range.. Indeed an indulgence.. Its a pity i forgot my camera. NO DOUBT i'll return soon... beautiful decor. very exquisite. impressed with their great service. i wanna return again this week! hehee...

Cut my hair when i'm half drunk.. crazy? i think so.
Went for a jog but even before i start, fren's car stop by roadside. honk at me. they're heading for a drink. so i hopped on. (of cos i headed home to change first.) haven met this 2 nuts since poly days.. i recommended long bar n off we went. after 2 drinks we left for paulaners. another 2 drinks i snip off my hair on e spot.

too tired to talk abt anything else. jus tell me i look good. even if it doesn't i dont care. i'll try to like it. i'll bleach it tmr. color shall depend on my mood. maybe ash? whatever... nitez!

Emotional ??

my day started fine. not great. but fine. went to the temple. draw a good lot. it made my day for a while i guess.


Lot says: Good Omen. All augur well. you are currently enjoying the best things in life, reaping sweet fruits from past labour. also get along well with both the good and mean characters around you. financial pursuiits: prospects good and in direct proportion to the amount of past labour put in. level of achievement of commensurate to efforts put in.

i leave e rest to the hands of God.

jus b4 i left, suddenly tot of drawing a lot for someone else too.. lot turn out to be almost excellent. it says "strike while the iron is hot". lady luck smiling on you, opportunity knocking, should seize without hesitation otherwise will be a matter of distress with deep regret. so whoever u r.. if u're reading, treasure watever's ard u now.. life is short. no time for regrets..

think these days i'm becoming very auntie, keep going temple? well sometimes life is so filled with events out of our control we jus gotta turn to spritual support.. for me, i've been meditating alot. some things, i guess, should not let anyone know cos i hate to upset any of my loved ones. lets jus share more happy times and appreciate each other's existence. life is beautiful cos i made it so.
was a peaceful saturday. started painting cos i had nothing to do. thou i felt i've lost touch after a long time. perhaps i'll do more touch up tmr. anyway i finished it up quickly b4 meeting up with my dearies..



it was present giving time.. bought cindy the ding dang and ade the tatted and torn bear.. whiskey's dog bowl and etc.. looked crazy to bring so much stuff to grapevine.










Guys jus dont stop talking abt NS whenever they meet. i wonder why... anyway i brought ken to meet the rest today.. its so funny. he's so lame.. i think cindy cant take it. *oops!* hahaa.. then again e night was great.. the soccer match was unexpected excitement. damn it we haf to leave b4 it ends.. grapevine closes at 2. then again.. was a great nite out!

then again.. im getting a bit bit emotional here. my dear friends, i'm sorry i'm not learning my lesson well and kept inflicting pain on myself. but how do i stop? i jus cant. life is a gamble? indeed a gamble. thou i already know i'll most prob lose, i'll still bet on it.. jus like a match between italy and senegal. obvious tat italy's stronger but cos e odds for senegal's higher so i bet on it. what fuck am i talking?

sometimes i jus hate it when i find myself doing all e stupid things. why? i dont even know. its like losing my soul in a maze. only it can find its way out by itself. i've lost control. i'm numbed. my dearies tell me to let go. i'm sorry to disappoint but i jus cant. i hate being this stubborn too. perhaps when i dont get wat i want, this is the way i am. i pursue it all the way. but in my way. i chose this way. actually i shouldn't be complaining at all cos i dont haf the right. i chose this way. i live with it. jus too bad its painful. life is this painful anyway. to settle for someone who loves me but i dont love is impossible. i'd rather keep loving thou i dont get anything back. i'd rather love.

haf to admit i'm almost at my limit. the room is spinning. i thought i heard my silent phone ringing. i know it wont. perhaps subconsciously i want it to. the craziest thing i can do now is to go out for a jog. i wonder how it will be. high on alcohol and jogging.

i'm still thinking straight. i wont do tat. i saw police right outside my house when i came in jus now. i dont wanna wake up in a station. times like this, i wish for comfort. i wish for m guiding light out of this darkness and misery. i need some hope. i need a shoulder to cry my heart out. i long for a hug n tell me u're there for me. perhaps all i need is some sleeping pills, my saviour.









jus let me sleep till eternal...