Wednesday, March 26, 2008

The Pump Room













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Monday, March 24, 2008

Courage and Love

"Courage is being afraid, but still go on anyway.."


Spoke to a girlfriend earlier on. I must say I've learnt a few important lessons from her.. She had problems with her marriage earlier on, and I'm glad things have worked out for her now. I believe it was her great attitude that tides her through..

I thought she was very courageous. Given the same situation, I know I would have taken the easier way out, just pack up and leave.. After all, wat's the use of hanging on to a broken relationship?

Then again, will i still say the same if there's a kid involve?

I cannot imagine, if i would still think e same way if i am married with children 1 day.. Apparently my friend has kids to think about, so she chose to keep working on the broken relationship, all in hope of giving her lovely children a complete family. I'm glad her prayers are answered, and things have took a turn and they are 1 happy family again..

Now that my sister's pregnant, with her sharing with me every detail during the different trimesters, the journey seem to amazing.. When the foetus is 1cm big only, there's already heartbeat. And slowly, the feet and fingers form. Life itself is really amazing.

Even watching my dear plants grow, it's amazing.. Keeping those plants in the office, actually taught me lots of things. It is easy to love them unconditionally, since they never talk back, never make any demands.. I greet them hello every time I see them, and thank them in my heart for beautifying the place. It's so much easier to love them, simply bcos they are so simply, unlike us human.. We're way too complex.

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Sunday, March 23, 2008

About Loss

loss - (noun)
  • the fact or process of losing something or someone
  • the state or feeling of grief when deprived of someone or something of value
  • the detriment or disadvantage resulting from losing
  • a person or thing that is badly missed when lost.

I've heard and said enough of the phrase 'you never know what you have till you lose it'. And I bet everyone else has.. I've always thought I knew this better than most people.

Since the start of the year, had been busy trying to make my partnership work out. Trying to get work going, etc.. The center of my life has became work work and more work. Long working hours kept me on the move. But i always make it a point to have 1 day left untouched to bring mum out. This has been the case for the past many many years. I've lost count.

Late last year, when my maid left, mum has been at home alone most of the time. The difference was that she's determined to be independent, so actually she was a happier person thou being left alone at home this period of time. Since the start of this year, my mum has fell down at home umpteen of times. Initially wanted her to learn that she really need help. But eventually e more she falls, it seems she's used to it. Not scared at all. She's indeed like a bull, refusing to succumb to reality.

Saturday morning at 6am, she fell down again. We didn't even think much about it since it has happened so many times.. And really, my family n i have done all possible. She chose to live life the hard way. We just gotta let her have her way.

Today I noticed some changes in my mum. Water was dripping from her nose and she didn't realise. It's not mucus for sure.

Years back when my cousin met with a serious car accident in KL, he came in SG for treatment. Neurosurgeon says tat's brain fluid. His skull was crushed from forehead down to skull. Thus brain fluid was flowing out, and when it runs dry, he dies. Thank God he survived.

So when fluid flows out of her nose, I know this spells some really bad news. My sis also checked her head. Found a small swell on her neck. I'm going to cross my fingers till I get to talk to her specialist tomorrow morning..


I felt my heart contracted. It's as if there's a big stone weighing it down. The heaviness in the heart.. I cant breathe right. It's hard to relax.

I guess no matter how 'mentally prepared' I think I am, I can never be really prepared to accept the harsh reality. I can just keep hoping nothing drastic happens, and pray very hard, and hope heaven hears my prayers and not let my mum suffer any more.. It's been so many years.. Countless of brain operations.. The deep scars left behind on different parts of her scalp and face.

Behind her tough facade, her stubbornness, her harsh words at times.. She is just a rather simple woman who lived her entire life serving her family, loving us in her way.

God, don't take her away from us so soon. She have yet to see and hold sister's baby..

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Week's review

Having insomnia again, so I thought I'd write something while I wait for the sleeping pill to take effect..

Happy Easter Sunday guys! (since it's past midnight already..)

Anyhoo.. Elaine and I had went on a shopping trip today! Been like the longest time since we've been shopping together.. Cant even remember when's the last time we've been shopping. I love shopping with Elaine! We just buy buy and buy and go nuts. Hahaa..

The damage for the day :
Pair of heels from J. West - $90++
T-shirt from Zara - $30
Pair of flip flops from Animal - $12
Lavendar shower gel + Peppermint foot spray from Bodyshop - $30++

Post picts of the victory when i'm free. Hurr..

And the frenzy has yet to end. I'm eyeing a Gucci bag online! Hmm.. *should i buy?*


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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

New Addition (part 2)

I got back to office today and found my new friend blooming already!!

Can u see? There's another 5-6 buds that's going to bloom.. It's just marvellous! :D

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New Addition


I've got new plants to line up by my window in the office.. Aren't they pretty?

I love watching those buds bloom into pretty flowers. With adequate water, fertilizer and lots of sunlight, I feel like a mother to my living friends! I watch them grow every day, made sure they're hydrated and free from pests..

I cant help but hope my business will bloom one day too.. :)

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Monday, March 17, 2008

Power of Photoshop

Why models have skin without pores.. and just never gets fat...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcFlxSlOKNI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFwFOH6h4lo

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Saturday, March 15, 2008

Purpose of Blog

Firstly, would like to further emphasize my disclaimer. To me, my blog is a personal space, just like how my room is to me. It is my comfort zone. I like to pen all my thoughts. Once in a while I read back and reflect on the events of my life. I like to reminisce the good memories and beautiful moments I spend with those dear to my heart. I also like to pen those bitter, angry, evil thoughts in my head. It's like a form of release to me. And when I read back, I laugh at myself for being so petty and somehow I always learn something new out of it.

So actually, for those negative and emotional posts, those who do read my blog (I know its mostly my friends, and the occasional anonymous someone who chance upon this space..), dont take me too seriously, really. I am someone with a quick emotional fuse. And I let anger go as quick as it gets over me.

The past few days hasn't been too pleasant. In short, my train of thoughts and harsh words here has hurt some people, directly or indirectly. And it all began from me sharing my URL on a social network we all are too familiar with - Friendster.

So I'd like to state my point here, the root of the problem anyway..

I think it's a very subjective issue we're dealing with here. I stand by the fact that everyone has the right to do anything they deem is right. I have the right to write whatever I want, as long as it's not illegal. I am apologetic if any of my posts here has hurt anyone in any way. But back to square one, I believe I am free to pen my thoughts in any sense. So I really am not sorry for what I wrote.

Things really aren't complicated. It's like going shopping. If you think the goods u're looking at, are hedious looking and priced ridiculously, jolly well walk out of that store. I don't think CASE would handle any complains of luxury brands like Gucci or Prada being over-priced and start looking into their accounts, rite? Maybe this is not the best analogy to come up with.. But I suppose it's easy enough for anyone to get my point. Else u wouldn't come this far to read this anyway.

So my point really is this: No one can make everyone like them. I always have a problem getting along with females, and i'm not sure why. (Side track, so my dear girl friends, I really do treasure you! :D) There bound to be some people who will love you, and some who will just hate you.

I think life is really too short for me to try to make everyone like me. I cant be bothered anyway.. Cos those who will, just dont need a reason to.. Tat's what I call fate.

Once again, I apologise for any unpleasant experiences caused by my posts. You can now close your browser and I thank you for your time to read this posts. You can now get me out of your head and move on with life?

Stay chill.. Life is too short for anyone to be mad at anyone. Peace Out..

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Random Jibberish

Started my week with a long long visit to the hair salon.. Apart from doing my hair that was starting to look like hay, was discussing with my stylist about a potential job. After which I met the photographer I'm currently for a meeting.. Then heads to meet the babes for dinner at Raffles City.

Dinner was simply great. In fact so great that we attacked the food and forgot to take some pictures.. Hurr...

Other random jibberish as below..

  1. Sometimes I try not to reply my SMSes too promptly to avoid appearing as if I'm very free. (Women.. *roll eyes*)
  2. I've mastered the great art of sounding perfectly fresh and energetic at 9am in the morning. Even though my eyes are still shut, and me still lazing in bed under the comforter.. The price to pay is the pain of having to recall so hard what the conversation is about later on..
  3. I have this bad habit of not explaining myself enough to people whom I'm not close to. Someone thought I was married when I first met them. Was attached tat time, so I thought what the hack.. And when I meet them again when I'm single, I cant be bothered to explain why I'm single.. So I jus let them think I am married anyway.. This sounds ridiculously bizarre...
  4. People say men are actually very simple people. But when I feel I cant understand them, I wonder if it's me who's too complex, or simply men can be complex too? Or is it me who's simple, and met a complex men? Or maybe it's a complex me and a complex men? How confusing...
That's all folks.. Lights out!

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Something to share..


*photo credit : The Paper Studio

Came across this very endearing picture.. I thought I had to share with my lovely friends!

Isn't it so heartwarming? I kept wondering how amazing the feeling would be, to have deers coming up to greet you at your veranda..

Cat and deer were checking out each other.. Such a warm and fuzzy sight amidst the snow in background.. NICE!

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Monday, March 03, 2008

New Toy!


I got the new Apple Keyboard to use! Complimentary of Mr. Tan.. How nice rite... :D (1 of the rare moments. hur hurr..)

It's so damn slick isn't it? :)))))

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Disclaimer :

This is my personal blog, for sharing interesting photos, pretty designs and even juicy gossips with my friends. This is also my ranting space. I scream and shout anything and everything.

This blog is also open to public.
But as mommy has taught us, don't believe every word strangers say.

Anyone is free to read and comment. It's great if u like what u see. It's just too bad if you don't, since opinion is subjective.

I thank you for dropping by anyway.