i'm depressed cos there's so much going on ard me. almost too much for me to handle but i still gotta hang on.

my mum's condition deteriorated. its draining me dry to see her wilting so fast. no one can give me an answer to wat's going on. her fever has been running for the third day. today she cant remember she had a shower an hr ago.. she cant remember who i am. she thought i was the maid.

i guess its hard for anyone to really understand how much tat hurts unless u've really been thru it b4.

i'm upset to say i dont get emotional support at this point of time. i find myself shouldering other stuffs for other ppl. but where's my support? i'm tired.. but i stil gotta meet clients with a smile.. still gotta say i'm fine when i jus wanna cry.

i cant sleep. either i get nightmare n wake up every 20 minutes.. or i hear mum shouting for me. i'd then rush down the stairs to find her sleeping soundly. eventually it takes a toll on me. esp at times like now, late into the night, quiet and lonely.. emotions take the better of me.