Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Deleted e prev post.. let e past be gone with e wind...
i'm actually tired of writing. have nothing much to say, apart tat i'm trying to come to term with my health condition and accepting treatment..
i had so much energy earlier on. i was very ready to do something abt my life. knowingly my memory is bad, i write every single thing in my note book n bring it all over. i haf no problem sitting somewhere eating lunch alone.. shopping alone was even more fun thou i was forgetful n sometimes gets lost.. but i was so prepared n confident to get well.
new medication is making me more depressed than i've ever been. jus sleeping all day. dont wanna go out cos e crowd freaks me out. somehow seeing e new psychiatrist, diagnose me with some other more serious terms, kinda crushed my ego n im afraid to get out of house. i hope this is jus like they say, "teething period".. it'll eventually go away n i'll be well.
anyway i asked for medication to calm my mum down, n now mum is so much better. so much happier than b4. i'm so glad for this tremendous change cos a little adjustment from her makes e whole family happy. i'm more willing to stay home now. sleeping is much easier now. but apparently too easy i'm sleeping almost 24/7.
i wanna get out there n do something. i need things to occupy my mind but i cant get back to work cos i'm too sleepy to for now. i need company but everyone's only free at night. my noon time is jus slacking away.. n by e time evening comes i'm jus too tired and depressed to get out. i'm really tired..
but i'm glad support from my family is tremendous.. the little acts from austin are nice.. i know everyone is busy but its jus nice to know they made time for me n i appreciate it alot..