Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I reviewed my post from August last yr.. there was episodes of tears n anger, also beautiful memories.. yet it never strucked me depression can be this possible when it decides to plague you.
Where was the ME i once was? Strong n resilient. Never say die. I do rant and become irritable with school n work. But i was determined to prove those who looked down on me, to show them i'll be a someone 1 day. Where has this spirit went to?
My sleeping soul.. when r u gonna wake up?
I feel so upset with myself i'm heading nowhere. I have all the green lights. Nothing to worry. Jus decide what i wanna do, n move ahead. I'm given e priviledge to do ANYTHING without having to worry abt the financing. But what is stopping me? What is my inner soul telling me? Its like my voice is drowning in an ocean of screams... for help..
I really do wish i have someone more permanent to rely on. Someone to confide to, someone to be there whenever i need. But i know its not possible. Everyone have something to do. I'm looking for something to do. I NEED something to do..
Feel like a shipwreak survivor battling to keep alive in the midst of the vast ocean. I have nothing concrete to keep afloat. I'm keeping myself afloat. But i'm tiring out.. burning dry.. dying out..
I cant cry cos my tears are dry..
I dont feel cos my heart is numbed..
Guilt plagues me like my shadow..
Always with me and very dark indeed..
12:44 AM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
Apparently my 1 week of "retreat" didn't really recharge me much.. partly cos i've chosen a wrong place to Retreat.. but its ok, i'm looking forward to the next trip - Bintan.. coming up in less than a month. then in June hopefully i'd get to travel to Vietnam.. Can u see i'm slowly covering every inch of the world? :)
Up in the sky.. i guess tat's where i really belong..
My first day was kinda mad. Got to e airport at 1145am, bought a ticket and off i went, rushing for the first available flight, 1235pm. Proceeded immediately to boarding.. still thought i'd haf some time to browse thru duty free for COACH bags... I'd summarize first 2 days with pictures.. nothing much to say. Being alone gives me time to think things through, yet i cant seem to really think very much..
Waking up alone in a cold cold room...
...Train to nowhere..
...Traffic Madness...
...Its a long long journey.. 
...View from my room. Now u know where i was?...
...Yet Another Blue Blue morning..
...A nice driver i met. maybe u can get inspirations for 4D from e tag abv his head? :P...
Met up with my friend Vienna at nite n she brought me to taste e local delicacies.. Sinful meal!! but authentic, tasty street hawker food tat's value for money and yummy..
..Some street along KL Sentral...
...Prawn noodles + Char Kway Tiao = SIN x INFINITY...
...The old old shop.. trust me u dont wanna use their loo!...
...Latte, Wild mushroom soup + Dead sinful Brownie w/ ice cream...
...Its never considered complete without ice cream for Brownie!!..
I gave myself another treat, my Virgin Pedicure.. *blush* I wasn't as ticklish as i thought. I'm definitely giving myself another treat soon! time to take good care of my unkept feet!...French Manicure i did @ Starhill Gallery on e first night...
...Ok take ur focus off my ugly callus n appreciate e NAIL ART instead please...
...Ok take ur focus off my ugly callus n appreciate e NAIL ART instead please...
Day 4, Its Good Friday.. Checked outta my hotel n moved towards Swiss Garden Hotel while awaiting for my darling n his buddies to join me.. I knew no one can really visualize me in jeans, tees and a huge backpack + crumpler sling bag.. but YES! Miss Claudia did backpacked her way to our neighbouring country, jus tat i still stayed in posh hotels anyway. hahaa...
...Sumptours Breakfast @ coffeebeans..
...Waited for the rest to arrive till i grow old n mouldy...
I guess the best part of e trip was clubbing at Zouk, KL.. Well i was invited to the Grand Ball Party in SG but unfortunately i happen to be away.. but im still in Zouk anyway! hahaa.. Haven drank n let my hair down for a long time.. I'll let all e pictures do e talking.. n random pictures to sum my trip up.. Thou nt recharged fully, i did take some nice pictures.. Savour the best while it last. Till then.. Adios!!
Almost forgot.. The Must-Intro--> Nasi Lemak Pyramid.. In a restaurant call Hot Mama cafe @ SungeiWang Shopping Centre.. If u go there, TRY IT! ;)
And ending with the Shaggadelic Austin Powers~! RETRO.... *lalalaa...*
...The sky is always beautiful...
...Sumptours Breakfast @ coffeebeans..
...Waited for the rest to arrive till i grow old n mouldy...
I guess the best part of e trip was clubbing at Zouk, KL.. Well i was invited to the Grand Ball Party in SG but unfortunately i happen to be away.. but im still in Zouk anyway! hahaa.. Haven drank n let my hair down for a long time.. I'll let all e pictures do e talking.. n random pictures to sum my trip up.. Thou nt recharged fully, i did take some nice pictures.. Savour the best while it last. Till then.. Adios!!
Almost forgot.. The Must-Intro--> Nasi Lemak Pyramid.. In a restaurant call Hot Mama cafe @ SungeiWang Shopping Centre.. If u go there, TRY IT! ;)
And ending with the Shaggadelic Austin Powers~! RETRO.... *lalalaa...*
11:05 AM
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