:: a little bit of claudia ::

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

I reviewed my post from August last yr.. there was episodes of tears n anger, also beautiful memories.. yet it never strucked me depression can be this possible when it decides to plague you.

Where was the ME i once was? Strong n resilient. Never say die. I do rant and become irritable with school n work. But i was determined to prove those who looked down on me, to show them i'll be a someone 1 day. Where has this spirit went to?

My sleeping soul.. when r u gonna wake up?

I feel so upset with myself i'm heading nowhere. I have all the green lights. Nothing to worry. Jus decide what i wanna do, n move ahead. I'm given e priviledge to do ANYTHING without having to worry abt the financing. But what is stopping me? What is my inner soul telling me? Its like my voice is drowning in an ocean of screams... for help..

I really do wish i have someone more permanent to rely on. Someone to confide to, someone to be there whenever i need. But i know its not possible. Everyone have something to do. I'm looking for something to do. I NEED something to do..

Feel like a shipwreak survivor battling to keep alive in the midst of the vast ocean. I have nothing concrete to keep afloat. I'm keeping myself afloat. But i'm tiring out.. burning dry.. dying out..

I cant cry cos my tears are dry..
I dont feel cos my heart is numbed..
Guilt plagues me like my shadow..
Always with me and very dark indeed..

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