Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Feels a little queasy rite now.. Cos memories kinda overwhelmed me a little. Got to know a friend broke up with someone he's been with for abt 7 yrs and am with someone else already. Somehow the memories of me and him flooded my mind. The tears aren't flowing anymore, but the pain is still my reality. How do someone get over someone u love so much so quickly and be with someone else so soon? (i'm nt referring to my friend here..)The answer is i've never gotten over. Its jus a big mistake i've committed and i'm still coming to terms with it. While i try to right my wrong, turn a blind eye to my pain and keep moving on, i jus hope 1 day i dont crash and fall cos all my wrongs will bury me alive.My dear friends are probably confused with me these days. N frankly i'm not sure myself. I cant bring myself to explain things too clearly cos i'm letting myself sink a bit in the dilemma cos sometimes being too awake in reality jus dont do us good. I think i sound like an alien. Doesn't matter if u dont understand me. I dont understand myself anyway.