Friday, December 29, 2006
ok i'm finally IN.. most would know the internet connection in Singapore has been affected by the earthquake in Taiwan. Frankly speaking when my sis first told me the cranky connection speed is due to the earthquake, i thought she was jus pulling my leg. When e news came out e next day then i realise how catastrophic the natural disaster is...
I was feeling emotional last nite cos i tried sleeping early, but couldn't get to sleep. Running a fever in bed.. grabbed my phone, am not sure what led me there, but i began reminiscing once again. It's more about what has happened in 2006, and a self reflection thingy came into my mind once again.. I've been wanting to do write abt it but jus cant find the right quiet moment.
Fortunately late at 2am, Junie was still online to keep me company and listened to my "sob sob grandma story".. Telling her how i dont wanna live with a regret further n decided to pursue what my heart tells me. Then this fateful night, i had a dream.. I could almost decode this dream myself. There was this part i was standing somewhere overlooking the sea. It was almost raging.. Yes i guess i still have a phobia towards e sea ever since Bintan trip. There was another part i bumped into Him, but he soon gets out of my sight, almost depicting how things btw us happened by chance, then he suddenly he disappears from my life. At that moment i got awaken by a very irritating alarm that goes off every 5 minutes.. sheezz...
Sometimes i wonder how do some people jus seem to be so much in control of their life. They jus know what they want, they go for it and win the game. So how do play this game of life anyway? This is sorta an answer to Miss June's post on self help books...
I started reading some random self help books very early this year when i feel so lost in my life. Felt like i've lost myself in this game, n i was searching for myself so desperately. I came across a couple of books that kinda tide me through the situation. One of them i find pretty enlightening is :: The Why are you here Cafe :: .
It's mentioned somewhere in there, finding the purpose of living. We have to find it ourselves.. The part i find it extremely true is about working on something u're not interested in. The vicious cycle is such that when we're not happy at work, we then use the money we earn to "reward" ourselves. As days go by, the more unhappy we get at work, then we use more money to "reward" ourselves materially. At the end of it, then we realise the void cannot be filled with material gains.. So why wait till then? We should do something we truly enjoy. For a start, set aside time to do something u really like once a week. Slowly make adjustments to doing it twice a week. Eventually you will be doing the thing u like full time.. That, is then, a happy n fulfilled life.Indeed, there is no hard and fast rules to life. There can also be no answer to some events that take place. My conclusion from my 22 yr n 5 months of my life is that no matter what happens, be true to yourself.. love yourself and rejoice life.. Life is a matter of choice, like an irritating long list of MCQs. 1 wrong answer does not lead to a wrong path unless we allow it to. Sometimes no amount of will leads u to the way u want. But without the will, things will definitely not work ur way! The loser never quits.. n the quitter never wins.. So, DO IT, jus DO IT!
My current read remains :: EAT PRAY LOVE ::. If u're wondering why i seem to take eternal to finish reading, well this is one book i cant bear to finish reading. Haha... It provides me with much insights n comfort everytime i pick it up. The writing style is very personal, n i relate to it so well whenever i read it when i need some relieve, i feel so much better.. so Ladies, do pick it up at the bookstore or eBay if u're interested. ;)
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