Saturday, January 06, 2007
Spoke to my sis last night about our friend jane.. Jane helped me a great deal when i was depressed last year. She is a very talented woman, one of the big names in the advertising scene in the region. I look up to her a great deal.. Apparently things aren't well for her. But eventually our conversation shifted to me.. my problems..Somehow was pretty emotional last night cos of the pressing work pressure.. I told her i wish there is someone i could talk to.. Someone i can connect with spiritually and enlighten me. Actually the simple problem with me is i have a problem letting go. Not stubborn. But 执着(zhi zhuo).. simply cannot let go, keep holding on. I'm learning the art of letting go. I know i can let go of anger n hatred. Cos i've been enlighten there is no point being angry and hating anything or anyone. Instead learn to appreciate the good things in life and rejoice over them. Someone enlighten me to stop worrying and stop holding on to history. It's like i know all the theories.. but doing it is another thing. I feel trapped cos i cant decide..我不想在人生的尽头一片空白。却更不想有遗憾。