Tuesday, February 06, 2007
ARGH! I really should have just post the picture of my new pair of shoes and talk abt our (laine n me) little shopping trip tonight.. Instead, my itchy fingers ran through the old posts and suddenly my world became a little grey....
Anyway this is what i bagged from Central tonight.. for first day of chinese new year! Someone told me wearing new shoes on day 1 of CNY will ward off people who tries to sneak ard behind ur back.. Anyway whether it's true or not it doesn't really matter. It's just my perfect excuse to buy SHOES! I dig shoes.. ;)So.. me and the old blog post.. When i run through my post from since last Jan, i cant help but relived the grey days. Sometimes the dark shadows still seem so real. I look back and realised 2006 was so messed up. Countless bad decisions messed my whole life up. Perhaps i didn't really recover from depression as i thought. Cos i saw days of me when i was so confused, yet i thought i was right.. Maybe the D monster did somehow played a part why my relationship failed. Maybe i didn't work hard enough. But ACTUALLY all these doesn't matter anymore. I'm not dwelling on the past anymore. Believe me. I just thought there should be something i could learn from the mistakes i've made.. i jus wish 2007 i could be better.
With regards to my job hunting the past week, i've received some positive replies. So i really hope by the time i turn 23 officially, i will be contributing to the household and not just taking all the time. I also look forward to a more permanent job, and i'm glad i feel i'm going to be up to it and definitely looking forward to career advancements within the next couple of years.. (though a bit too early to say now.)
Some things (i'm telling myself) i've learnt hard and well.. 2006 has been bumpy cos i did not set goals for myself. I couldn't see the way so i lost directions. For relationship, i know i will never ever give up on it again so easily. No room for regrets in life. You just gotta think things through before you act the next time. Dont try to imagine how things would have been if you had hold on, if you wait till u see direction, etc.. Don't dwell on the past. It's enough to be doing your best for the future. For work, you need to be more active and put words into action. It's ok to start all over. After all a 9-5 job is a whole different environment from working at home. Time to tackle the sleep issue!
2:10 AM
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