Feel so tortured by my condition.. seen e specialist yesterday and even after 3 doses of medications, i dont seem to have any improvements.. This is bad cos prolong coughing weakens the lungs and as e days go by it jus gets harder and harder for my body to recover on its own. That will mean stronger medications are needed.

I was kept awake the whole night coughing and coughing. The best i can do is to find a position that i dont cough so much n jus rest. Head to the washroom so often i've lost count. I've made appointment with the vet to bring my bunny for an op since last week. But sigh.. i have to cancel it, much as i wasn't willing.. (hardly find the right time whereby my sis can fetch me..) So my poor Cocoa has to wait till i recover b4 i can bring him again.

This morning, dad left for business trip. Back only on sunday.. Really worried if i fall v sick at night there will be no one tat can drive me to hosp if i really need it. Most of the time the cough gets worse at past midnight. Almost like an alarm clock.. i'd get asthma attack n cough non stop during that time. No amount of hot water will help.. I know only dripping medicated oil down my throat helps to cool off the attack. But my throat is already sore till it bleeds now. I dont wanna irritate it further with such harsh chemicals..

Sigh.. cos i cant talk much to anyone now, i can jus vent my frustrations and ranting to my blog.. i try not to go out at all these days. Coughing on the bus like almost like a taboo. Passengers will give u the "eekkk!" look as if i shld get off the bus before i infect another person with my chronic cough.. Esp when u're sick, frankly there's no way to control the volumn of ur cough. U jus have to do it bcos it happens that way... So it really can get quite embarrassing when u cant stop coughing and just have to get down the bus wherever u are...

All i wish is to get well really soon so that my work flow can start again. I'm getting all panicky about deadlines already.. Sobz..