There are so many surprises tonight.. n its all relationship related..

Ok the not so nice news first..

The other nite when i was talking to junie till dawn, discovered someone i know recently is married. Came as a shock cos i never knew.. thou i never asked n it doesn't really concern me, i felt disgusted with a married man flirting ard. Dont get me wrong. He didn't flirt with me. In fact i dont really talk to him much. So happened he was trying to pick june's friend up. So yucks! I deleted him off msn straight away.

I was in the gossip mode tonight so i was surfing friendster n discovered so many new events happening in my friends' life. A girlfriend of mine got attached pretty soon after breaking up with her ex of 7 yrs. She was so down and almost suicidal then cos e guy left her for someone new. That happened less than half a year ago. Now she's with someone new for e last couple of months. Ok tat's fast... so that really got me wondering abt how ppl move on so quickly with their lifes. I need to learn tat lesson really well..

Also discovered 1 of my ex bf is getting married. How surprising... Pleasantly surprise that is. Cos he's not v old, but i suppose financially stable. So if he's met the right one for him, i'm glad n wish him all the best. Things got pretty sour btw us back then when we part.. several ugly episodes that dragged on for months. Were together for abt 2 yrs then.

Well looking back i suddenly said to elaine, maybe if those unfortunate events did not happen to us, we might jus go a long way. He is a nice guy and treated me properly. I got a comment b4 he was 1 of the few nice guy i was with. I agree, cos e rest were jerks! lol... But then again given me back then, i guess i jus refused to be tied down.

Between age 17 to 20, i guess tat was the period of time i was most "messed up". Well i suppose its the stage when i was growing up.. alot of paths i chose ended up in dead ends. But i guess somehow it led me to where i am today. At 21, 2005, tat year was tough. Apart from my mum's hospitalisation, June left for UK. 1 less buddy by my side.. i also had to leave lasalle in 2005. 1 of my regret in life cos i couldn't complete my course. 2006 got even worse with my depression episode. Mum's hospitalised again. And the break up.. But when i look back now i see that i am very fortunate cos despite this 2 extremely rough years, i have a very special someone by my side. I sailed the journey with alot of love in my heart and not anger or resentment to my setbacks. I learnt a great deal throughout the journey.

2007 started with alot of new hopes and new opportunities. I also adopted a different way of living my life. I felt closer to my religion and i found comfort and peace from it..

So i guess as we grow older, we learn alot of new things along the way.. the key is to be aware and learn the lessons well. Only then will we not have regrets in our lifes..