About FATE

the day was pretty fine until a few minutes ago.. sheezz!! if someone spells n pronounces ur name wrongly, how would u feel? at most correct them rite... well i corrected this person, gave him e right spelling.. n e reply i got was.. u also know i always spell wrongly.. somethings used to it already very hard to change. will u feel irritated?

do u believe in fate? i do. n it fascinates me. i always say who i am depends on who u r. have u ever come across some people that u jus haf endless stuffs to talk abt while some no matter how u try, u jus cant click.. there r jus some ppl i'm always happy jus to hear his/her voice or sms... exceptionally surprised to receive a call from them after a long time.. while some no matter how long u jus go "oh shit! its him..." when u hear ur phone ring... strange huh? so i turn from a nice and friendly anything goes claudia.. to an attiitudal unpleasant and forever BUSY claudia..

spent e day at home, doing mani and pedicure, facial and hair treatment.. wanted to go for a massage but cos of e cancellation of mambo night, i was too lazy to travel to great world city. met elaine for dinner, checked out some new spas at serangoon gardens.. n head back home pretty early. was already talking abt e "butt" issue earlier on.. then it got even more intensed e moment i got online...

lost a bit of weight recently thanks to stress n lack of sleep. but guess i lost weight at e wrong areas of e body. where's suppose to be big became small n wat's suppose to be small, remained big.. sobz... it irritates me to know laine's bf says i look like i dont haf a butt.. yes tat i know.. wearing jeans look horrible and wearing skirt it jus keeps sliding off me.. but i suppose no butt.. i'll still live with it.. i dunno wat kinda day is it today. 3 guys came to me saying HEY u lost weight! ya very flattering.. but not when 1 of them made a comment i'm getting flat "there"... oh WHERE? "there...." u know.. boobs! he compared me in a grp picture.. n made a most insulting comment.. am i really becoming airport soon?? trust me i'd rather put on all e weight i've lost jus to get my boobs back.. no way am i gonna look slimmer but without breasts. i cant live with it! this gets on my nerve.. so much so i cant help but msg austin to rant.. all the way from singapore. tsk! really irritating me..

was abt to go away from msn to do pushups.. n my guy fren say.. oh do more.. then u will soon haf square boobs.. i was like ARGH!!!!!!! i didn't lose weight everyone says i'm fat.. now tat i've lost a little.. still fat.. but i get negative comments... sobz.. so should i like remain fat for the rest of my life jus to retain my breasts n butt?

suppose to go swim with ray tmr.. now i'm having second thoughts.. swimming makes e butt even flatter.. sigh.. tell me wat i should do to maintain my bustline n still lose weight off my hips n tummy.... sobz...

totally sian night.. everyone sleep early......