Fear..

Its really scaring me. Mum's forgetfulness freaked me out seriously. an hr ago i was talking to her b4 i went for a short jog. half an hr later i got home. she called for me. i went downstairs n she railed at me. blaming me for not talking to her the whole day, left her all alone at home...

i talked to her when in the morning. i went for spa session at 3pm. i called home to ask wat she wants to eat. i bought food home during dinner time. all these, she forgotten. i cant help but feel so helpless at this moment. i cant be strong any further. why when i thought things are settling down, it starts getting out of hand again.

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the better stuff..

went for spa today. ultra relaxing.. thou e massage made me cried out for help, i needed tat to release my tensed muscles. the first time i had a massage tat rubs ur chest. gosh i tell u.. tears jus flow out like she pressed a button. felt like i've got a bruised chest now. but my muscles there were indeed very tensed. sigh..