Your problem or mine?

apparently those who are in a relationship ard me, are having problems and i cant understand why. sometimes, its nt always e men tat has a problem.

why do i see so many examples of women sleeping with someone in hope of a relationship? love is not a transaction. u dont use ur body to trade for love. n obviously u dont understand love when u do this. so dont bother trying so hard to look for love. so when a man sleeps with a woman with the rules laid out on the table, there's no commitment involve, u cant blame men do u? but men.. dont take advantage of naive brainless women. they, too, sadly, are women.. thou i'm so not proud of them.

why do people stray? the recent news of the death of the 19 yr old ger and her married colleague in a car.. highly speculated. were they having an affair? there was love bites on e girl's neck. but man's family claim he's a good father and husband who returns home for dinner daily. but who knows e exact story now tat 2 lives were lost..

my point is, it doesn't means ur perfect wife/husband or bf/gf wont stray cos nothing is impossible.. and tat bf/gf tat u think dont give a shit abt u, doesn't means he's unfaithful too. not loving u the way u wanted him to love u doesn't means he dont. so why do we humans stray? because we're all human.. because we all make mistake. its not tat e sex was bad. not tat the lousy gf cooked rock hard steak. not tat miserable bf wont part with his money nor his TV remote control. its jus tat ur luck is bad la! find a new partner..

broken mirrors never mend. my philosophy is, when things dont work e first time, something's gotta be really wrong. of cos there'r cases of mended relationships. but how often does tat happens? we should all learn to move on and break habits. very often we cling on to the past, to broken relationships, all because we were used to their existence, the way life was, the familiar scent, the familiar hand u used to hold, the familiar arm u fell asleep in. but face it. when things are broken, they aren't e same. the same arm u fell asleep with became a pain to hold. the hand u held becomes hard n cold. learn to let go. its always a hard habit to break. but nothing is impossible.

the big question kept popping in ma head. wat's my problem?

i kept thinking why i'm still single. its been the longest time since i've been in a relationship. i'm coping fine. but sometimes i do get lonely. some say i look too "expensive".. did u jus say look?? com'on.. looks r deceiving. at least i dont dress in rags then drag u to gucci boutique rite? hahaa.. anyway im looking for e someone who accepts me for who i am. nt base on how i look and how i dress..

i find it hard to find ppl i connect with. i dont like passive lovers. i need someone to take charge of my life. but of cos there's gotta be a balance. sometimes its good to take the back sit and let me do e running of e show. but i dont like anything passive. its ok for men to cry. but dont start wailing over e slightest nothing. i need an emotional support. not being a support. again.

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my mind kept blanking out these days. all of a sudden i cant think. no matter how hard i try, i cant remember who i wanna talk abt. it happened e other day when i was in town. i jus kept circling the same place. i cant remember why i went there, wat i needed to get. the crowd was crazy. it made me panic a little. i headed home straight soon after. its happened again. i cant remember wat i wanna say next. n this is freaking me out a bit..