Guilt!

I woke up feeling really sick today. Got sun burnt on my back yesterday @ Sentosa. So i feel like it's on fire all the time.. n thanks to irregular eating habits, gastric has been giving me some problems lately. So today i woke up feeling nausea, feverish and with a swollen fish eye (n have no idea why)...

Anyhoo, i woke up with one sole intention of completing my PR assignment. House was empty cos dad, mum n my sis had went to msia to distribute her wedding invites for the coming big day. I thought it was a good day for me to focus on work. But i ended feeling miserable cos there's no one to get food n medicine for me. Had no choice, crawled out of my "ulu ulu island" and landed myself in mad-town Bishan. Got back in an hour feeling even more sick than ever.

I focused for an hr, did research, etc.. N i got a msg from my sis, telling me mum brought out with her a card i gave her years ago for mother's day. She was talking in the car, saying no one remembers it's mother's day!

Actually i did. n actually when we went shopping last wk, sis bought her a leather bag tat she wanted. I remembered.. but somehow i got myself buried in work, and sorta convenient brushed this day off my mind. Frankly i always felt this day is over rated and overly commercialised. It's not as if i only express my love today out of 365 days a year..

But seeing tat sms made me felt so guilty. Indeed i've been too focused with work n studies tat i've neglected my mum n her feelings. Perhaps i really should have set work aside n jus head to msia with the family actually. So at 6pm, i dashed to town to grab a card n some tonics for her.

I guess we all know our theories well. We mus treasure e ones we love, treasure those ard us, blah blah blah.. we always think we know. But actually we do lose our way and end up neglecting the feelings of those ard us. This couple of months my time been so taken up by work n studies. At the instance when i was making my way, i realise i've lost myself..

This morning b4 she head out, she woke me up from slumberland and handed me money to get food for the day.. me being half awake, conveniently took e money, say bye bye and went back to sleep. Just what am i thinking? I feel ashame of myself for being so not nice and taking things for granted. :(

I really should manage my time better and adopt a better attitude! :(