@ Random

I've never been sure about my life. The things I wanna do, the life I wanna live. And it's starting to worry me a lot.

My ill discipline seems to be the culprit for everything. My sleep pattern is erratic. I need to stop taking caffeine. I need to watch my diet and complement it with my health and those dreaded medicine.. But I just kept forgetting..

I wonder when are my hormones gonna be back to normal. I've ballooned so much I cannot bear looking into the mirror. I'm hell of a water tank and askin me to drink less it jus seems impossible. I hate water retention.

I began to realise I've began to develop better learning attitude toward my studies and I owe it to work alot. Kinda regret why i didn't apply the same attitude I had for work on my studies. Perhaps I'd have done better and needn't repeat modules. Somehow the more I learn, the more I realise how little I know. And it's interesting to always stay curious..

Why is it do we only begin to change after something major happens in our life to change things? I only realise time is ticking away.. Life can be so unpredictable. We need to live life to the max. Yet what is living life to the max?

I feel like i'm floating around in the midst of the vast ocean. Studies to me now, is like a buoy that keeps me afloat while I figure out the direction I wanna set sail. Health complications is like an anchor that is strapped to my ankle and i struggle hard to keep afloat..

Today has been a pretty happy day for me, though it has been hectic. Yet it is annoying to be still awake at this hour.. zzz..