Monday, December 31, 2007

Best and Worst Moments...

On the last day of 2007, i guess it is like e most apt time to do a recap of the best and worst moments of my life this year. Heck all the new year resolutions.. I suppose i didn't complete even half e list i set last year. So shall jus save e effort this year.. The biggest plan for 2008 is to have no plans at all.. Go with the flow...

I wanna save the best for last.. But i so realise all the bad events only took place in the later part of e year. So perhaps I'd jus recap e moments right from the start.

I remember on faithful 7th January, i woke up feeling like an entirely different person. I spent the entire night talking to myself, questioning the purpose of my life and i actually found alot of answers within myself. I began living a very different life.

For the first half of my year, i was busy preparing my sister's wedding.. I coped with assignments and freelance work. While she was unemployed then, we spent alot of time together..

Ard March, when Osteen quit his job, we began mugging together.. I guess that's when e friendship really started. Shortly Audrey joined us.. And when she quit her bank job too, it was like e best time ever. We had lots of teochew porridge, beer and wine.. Western food.. Geylang's Dou Jiang and Dim Sum.. Nice! I miss those days. We work and play hard.

My work was pretty smooth. I had a few good additions to my portfolio. Nothing really spectacular. Career wise it was a fruitful and bountiful year for me.

The mid of year was really nice. There was Clairr's wedding.. n shortly, Sister's wedding.. Then carry on with loads of mugging..

My dearest Junie finally returned from UK too.

One of the fruitful event this year has been the chance to work with prison inmates on some parts of the yellow ribbon project. It's regrettable I cannot contribute more time on that. But i sure wish I can be more involved next year. My best Christmas present this year is actually a handmade card sent to me by the inmates.. I really hope the boys that I've worked with will have an equally bright future as any of us. While working with them, i see the good in them. I see great potential and really we shldn't condemn anyone forever for 1 fault. We all make mistakes isn't it? We're just luckier to get away with it tat's all...

Anyhoo. Suddenly disasters began to strike. 3/4 of the year past.. Then suddenly Don passed away.. The biggest hit on me this year has to be his departure. I still kept questioning the possibilities of him taking his own life. We dont know each other for many many years. But our friendship and understanding for each other's passion for our work runs deep. He is the greatest loss I have this year. He made all other hiccups seem so small. I'm still trying to be strong and avoid thinking abt him at all.

Shortly after, i got my office space on October 8. Think its the next day or something.. I was hospitalised. Discovered i had a recurrence of the dreaded illness. But man i'm not defeated. I'm jus beginning to see the light..

It was just recently that Austin n I decided on the partnership, though we've worked on a project together on. We're taking a chance to try to make things work.. And hopefully this takes flight. I really hope I dont lose focus and keep going on track.

I guess this year has really made me grown quite a bit. Quite a few changes i see in myself, esp on perspective for life. I've certainly become more optimistic and stronger, though still not strong enough. But i know i will jus get better anyway. :)

What else can i ask for? I had a pretty pleasant 9 months.. And a rather disastrous 3 months. I've already gained more than i can lose! So I'm still thankful for everything this year..

Thank you to all my friends and family..

May all goes well for 2008 too! Farewell 2007...

I hope my family and friends all be well in 2008.. Most of us are heading on the track to building our career.. I foresee some pregnancy coming along next year.. Whatever we're working on, everyone pls do take great care of our health. Have a happy year ahead! See you 'next year'...

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Monday, December 24, 2007

Reflections..

The time for reflection and recollection has come.. The year is ending yet again. Time seems to zoom pass faster and faster as we grow up.

I remember as a child, Chinese New Year and Christmas always seemed special cos I had to wait such a long time all the time. As time goes by, we go, "It's Christmas again!".. And we start to talk abt what we did the last Christmas, and how near that day it seemed..

Tonight my dearies and I celebrated our 10 years anniversary together.. Our 10 years of friendship, our 10th Christmas together..

10 years is a very long time. Given how hard it is to get true friends these days.. We spent the past 10 years growing up together. Our teenage years.. Our arduous study journey.. Now some of us have embarked on the journey of career building..

Jee Khen made us a video for our anniversary. A compilation of the many birthdays, Chinese New years and Christmas we celebrated together.. We had so much memories together.

Suddenly when i look back, it occurred to me how precious each and everyone of you are to me. I admit each of us have our short comings. There bound to be something about each of us that we cannot stand. Sometimes we talk behind each other's back and complain about this and that.. Sometimes some of us gets so occupied with their own life we forgot to keep in touch. Sometimes we make mindless comments about each other and we hurt each other's feelings. Sometimes there's just this love hate relationship we have about each other..

But we made it, my dear.. We have remained close for the past 10 years. I've learnt, to maintain our friendship, it isn't about changing each other. It's about forgiving and forgetting.. It's about accommodating and compromising.. There's always this trust I have towards u. I know u guys are the ones who will not abandon me in rough times. We accept each other the way we are, we can be totally at ease in each other's company. We dont have to speak graciously when we had a bad day. We dont have to act decent when we simply dont feel like it. When I am with you guys, I can let my hair down and do ridiculous stuff. The world can think we are childish and we never grow up. But actually they are simply jealous..

I remember i used to give disapproving looks when the boys dont behave. Well yes I still do at times. Haha.. But i actually begin to appreciate u boys for not growing up. We have an entire lifetime to live up to the expectations of being 'adult'. I have began to realise how precious it is to remain childish. Actually it is the fact that I've realised it is my honour to know u guys can be urself when u're with me.. U dont have to pretend to be serious when u're not. So thank you boys..

These days, I really began to appreciate this circle of friendship even more. I have less and less time for you guys. Like this Christmas, I couldn't spare time to do the arrangements.. I really wanted to spend the time to pick a special gift for each of you. But i dont even have time to even write a card.. Moreover, the more people I meet, the more I realise how hard it is to even make real friends. 10 years.. it really is precious..

My dear friends.. Thank you for your company for the past 10 years. May we continue to support each other along the way of life.. For the next 10 years, 20 years, 30 years..

Have a very Merry Christmas. I love you guys..!!

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Monday, December 17, 2007

Cursed Day

It has been a really bad day. I haven felt this crappy in many weeks and even months.

One production screwed up this morning. Printer pulled a fast 1 on me. Printed vouchers and it came without serial number. As good as not printing anything. Now i have to compensate transport and get my own courier to deliver.. I guess my reputation has been tarnished to a good extend.

I'm totally exhausted. Like I've returned from the battlefield.

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

I love my Clique

Thursday night, chick, rayner and I headed to the airport to pick Miss Elaine up at past midnight.. We finally got to Changi Village for supper after a really long drive. I credit that to taking a wrong turn along the expressway. Thanks Chick! (Now we know what a bad navigator he is.. :P)

So while we savour those air flown, super delicious egg tarts.. We were making plans to watch movie, plan for xmas party next week, and lots of random issues and definitely loads of lame jokes. It was such a bliss though I was actually bogged down with a big headache just before we made our way to airport. It was a good break away from work. I'm able to be myself totally.. No pretence.. No judgements.. I simply love them.

Accompanied Elaine to town to sign her contracts on Friday. Isn't it awesome? This babe got a job even before she graduates. Though the pay is tiny for the first 2 months of training, I know she will sail through and get that confirmed job at the Royal Bank of Scotland after that.. I dont care Elaine you have to give me a big treat after that first fat pay cheque!

So lunch on Friday was on me simply cos I still owe Elaine money. HAHA.. So actually no i didn't buy lunch. BUT.. I did buy dessert, which actually cost much more than lunch.. Hurr.. Junie manage to come join us for the sweet treat before she heads to dinner with her beloved. Hehe.. We never say no to desserts..









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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Even more random

Life has always been like a roller coaster ride. Wat's new? The thing is I am taking forever to learn how to handle situations better.

My house now no longer has the privilege of a maid to help out with the chores and keeping mum company. It's just too bad my mum never know how to appreciate the things she have and make life hard for herself and everyone in the house. So now I gotta go out to work with half my mind left in the house.. And get home with piles of laundry waiting for me. But frankly, this is not any issue for me. The big issue is, when 'some people' makes life harder by conveniently leaving his laundry all over n hope his mental power will make dirty laundry clean... Good try there. I shall see how long it takes for IDIOTs to realise he needs to get things done for himself.

I wonder if its a leo thing, the elaine tat's far far away in HK is feeling horrid too. Well thankfully she'll be back tomorrow. I bet we'll have alot of catching up to do..

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Random

There are just some things, some people in our lives that we never give up upon. Much as i really wanna let go, simply ignore and be invisible in this house.. Much as i just wanna be numbed and selfish and just live life the way I want it to be, focus on my work 101% and give it my best shot at this point of my life..

Then i begin dreading the life i have no control on.

I really just wanna do the work I want and say no to those I cannot relate to. I am labeled overly idealistic to think this way.

When I wanna just ignore the madness at home, I'm selfish and irresponsible.

I dont need a bloody winning formula for life. But how do i live? Satisfy my highly demanding world or just drop it and lost it?

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Monday, December 10, 2007

I LOVE DISCO!

Totally dig this limited edition Absolut.. Are you in the party mode yet? :D

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Thursday, December 06, 2007

Updates

I've been very very busy lately. Working 16 hrs for the past 3 days. I worked over the weekend as well.. I gave myself a break today, left e office at 230pm and went for my monthly pedicure. I fell asleep on the comfy couch..

These days I wake up pretty early and reaches office at 9 sharp. Finally Claudia broke the spell of keeping late nights and waking in afternoons..

Some pleasant changes took place for me at work.. Jobs have come knocking on my door and i feel very blessed and spoilt! I really hate turning any jobs down now, especially when things are picking up and there are possibilities of me going into partnership.. It's hard to say no, but I had to prioritize my time anyway..

It really was suppose to be a pretty happy day for me. Suddenly the unpleasant memories flooded me yet again.. It does daunt on me a bit, when I begin to see the future brighten up, I see success, fame, satisfaction, all on the way.. But I'd hate to reach there and find no one to share my joy with. I constantly tell myself I shall not lose myself in this pursuit.. Austin is right. He say i don't know how to numb myself. I need to learn better. Perhaps I need even more work.

I managed to squeeze in time for dinner with some of my uni mates, Clairr, Cholrin and Adeline.. Went to First Thai Restaurant at Purvis St. Great food! I must lug my dearies and gooses along to makan and destress..

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