Visitor in the garden

Look who i've got in my garden! It's a big fat tree lizard, ready to pound on a flying insect. I thought it was quite a nice sight.. Just too bad my camera ain't good enough to snap a better pic of it. The picture does not do it justice. This pretty lad has a bright gold skin that was glowing under the sun.. It moves rather swiftly too.

Though i'm never a fan of lizards, i thought this 1 looked great under the bright lights. It's the beauty of mother nature..

Apply iPhone..

Chanced upon the news today, Apple will be releasing the 3G iPhone in June, later this year. And it so happened that dear Koobin was so generous to lend me his iPhone to try it out, so i'm gonna talk abt it a bit here..



Austin and I constantly talked abt it since last year.. We say, when iPhone is released in SG, we will go grab it, and hopefully by then, our little studio would have started making some bucks to allow us this luxury. I'd really love to have a phone that synchonises with my mac, since all the phones i've used, its software is not compatible with mac platforms.

So so.. the iPhone is one ultra sleek phone. There are also some nice features.. Eg. when u're browsing websites, all u have to do is jus turn ur phone, and the screen becomes landscape. Intelligent, ya? Ok maybe u guys would have already watched the iPhone's ads when they demonstrate all e functions. So i shall jus get to e things i hate abt iPhone.

Bcos it is a full touch screen, it's so hard to SMS when u cant feel the buttons. Also it's SMS function is by QWERT keyboard style, not keypad. Trust me, even without fat fingers, it's really hard to type a msg without clicking on e wrong alphabet. And there's no forward SMS function. SMS is getting on my nerves.

Camera function is very basic. Jus point n snap. Nothing to adjust e settings or whatsoever. I cant bluetooth e picture out, so i think without e cable u cant transfer it. U can choose to email it though.. So comparatively, i am glad my hardy SE k800i lived up to its name of a camera phone..

Talking abt tat, i've dropped my SE several times and it's still in tact and working pretty much fine.. I would dare drop the iPhone, since it's not mine, and also, i suspect it may not be able to withstand much shock. IT's too pretty to even withstand oily fingers or scratches. I find myself constantly polishing the touch screen cos i am simply anal abt fingerprints and grease..

So, it's day 2 of using the iPhone. I have already decided to jus use it as an iPod, and switch back to my SE..

My conclusion is, I'll prob get an iPod touch instead of the iPhone, and keep using my hardy SE till it drops dead on me.

Still.. Thanks Koobs! It's so generous of u to borrow me ur iPhone.. Muackss...!!

Disturbingly Delightful Desserts

Need I say more? The title and pictures have expressed it all... Simply delicious..!

Rantings (part 2)

Thought i was gonna explode when i saw Austin's mms. Some bloody idiotic hiccup took place with regards to work. In short, i jus really wanna stab my client!!

(And its so bloody hateful.. I cant talk abt work anywhere online, else i risk getting sued my pants off! So tat's all for now..)

So it's always a chain reaction. This totally spoilt my day, as if it wasn't spoilt enough in e first place.. Today I woke up with a big headache, fever and flu. Had a rough night.. Tossed and turned in bed. My aunt wanted to check my forehead if i had a fever. It gave me a big shock and it really interrupted my sleep badly.

Suddenly i jus feel so choked up. Sitting at the table with dim lights.. Aunt sleeping behind me.. I feel like crying. There's a whole load of stuff weighing down on my chest and I feel suffocated. Yet i cant even let my emotions out..

I'm more tired than ever...

Rantings

I'm really really really tired..

It's friday.. 16 days since mum's hospitalised. But i think the past 4 days are the most tiring so far. Normally when my sister n i take turns to be at the hospital for mum's lunch, we'll sneak away after she falls asleep to do our stuff.

My aunt arrived from Sydney on Tuesday. Sis drove her to hosp straight from the airport. I think my mum dont exactly recognise her anymore. Sad..

So our routine has sort of changed cos someone gotta keep her company at any point in time. So here's how e past 4 days went:

Tuesday
I arrived at hosp early. Sis ran errands then pick aunt from airport at 3pm then heads to hosp straight. We left at 8pm, had dinner then heads home.

Wednesday
Sis picks aunt and me from home at 1130am. We stayed in hosp all day. I left at 630pm to have dinner at June's grandma's place, then met elaine to pass her stuffs at grapevine. Got home at 1130pm.

Thursday
Part time maid came at 8am.
I went back to work at being missing for 2 weeks straight. Went for site survey at client's.. then heads to hospital again. Had dinner, then got home at 10pm.

Friday
Took cab to hosp with aunt in early morning. After mum had lunch, brot aunt to Great World, she had a short massage while i had coffee. Then we pack dinner for mum, heads back to hosp again. I got home at 9pm.

Now that I have a new account on hand to work on, i find it so hard to even try to do some work during mum's napping time.. And somehow it really wears me out..

Yes, i'm complaining. But it doesn't mean i don't appreciate her coming over. I really do.. Flying all e way here just to spend some time with my mum. Only people who really cares does this. But perhaps i'm just not used to having 'a mummy figure' at home. Since many years, i've not have someone nagging and breathing down my neck.. You know, e typical 'you must drink lots of water..', 'you must sleep early..'..

oh man.. the concern has become a form of stress to me. i need to breathe. Can someone pass me oxygen tank please??

Taking chances

Sometimes, we just gotta take chances at the things that matter to us.

The decision for mum to go for the operation, is a big gamble for my family. Especially when the doctors aren't exactly keen on the operation, it can really be daunting on us. Doctors aren't wrong. Even if she does make it through this op without any complications or side effects, the tumours are going to recur in a really short time. Perhaps a failed surgery is like a demerit point on a doctor's record.. Even the top neurosurgeons weren't keen.

(When i meant they weren't keen, it doesn't mean they won't do it. Decision is left open to us. Just from their point of expertise, they would rather not..)

But can we, as family, jus leave her to wilt away? Sit by and wait for the tumour to grow and take a life away from us? We dont have the heart to let that happen.. No op means zero chance.

Perhaps the decision of going ahead with op is just a hope for miracle to happen again.. At the back of our heads, we just keep wishing the doctors are just being overly pessimistic. Maybe mum's willpower will allow her to tide through this ordeal yet again?

But i guess for better or worse, we just shouldn't deprive her the chance to live on, even if its jus 1%..

Things I wanna do..

You know people say the things we often desire to do or to have, are those tat is hard to obtain.. Thus, at this point of time, my mind kept wondering off.. Kept wanting to do the funny funny stuffs.

I missed the last "Black Market".. Flea market at Dempsey Road's House.. So I really wanna go check it out. There bound to be some rare findings I cant resist to bag..

And there's the Big Bake Off

Any girlfriends wanna do the Big Bake Off together?? It sounds like so much fun..!! I can imagine us burning down our kitchens already. Hee...

Note of thanks

While i accompany my mother on her final battle, I'm thankful for those who stood by me..

Be it u came by to spend some time with me, sending regards to my mum, visiting her, keeping my family and me in your daily prayers.. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

This road has been peaceful so far. I'm accepting everything that comes along the way.. Actually life is like tat isn't it? The more u resent and resist the obstacles, the harder they hit back at you.

Just go with the flow, with the laws of nature..
Embrace it..
Learn something out of it..
Make the best out of it..

It's not about lamenting about what u dont have, what u've lost or are going to lose.. but learning to see the beauty in everything, especially those unseen by others..

Thank you my besties for your unconditional love for me.. With you rooting for me, i'll only become stronger. I cant say enough "thank you", really.. This friendship mean as much to me, as my family to me. U're right there beside my heart..