My 'Highs'..

Dawn is breaking. Good morning world. It's a brand new day again.

I just got home moments ago. It's been a very long day and night for me indeed. Headed out to study @ 8pm yesterday at my usual spot. Unfortunately i have to find a new place to study now. Starbucks @ United Square is now constantly packed with laptop users. Austin picked me up at abt 930pm and we headed to Kallang and mug the entire night away..

n guess wat? We're still not finished with this damn paper yet! But i guess we made good progress actually. Should be able to get it over by end of today.

It's now almost 7am. I'm still pretty wide awake. Thanks to coffee. It does wonders..

I jus have this thought and i wanna 'talk' it out. Guess I'm having the 'highs' of my life. Everything seem too good to be true. Too smooth.. I'm happy day in day out. I'm not sick. I'm not worn out.. I may be busy n stress with work but i am happy and contented with my life. No worries.. Even the little frustrations of life dont get to me that much. At least at this very moment i'm even able to thank the day for breaking.. I find myself thanking every single little thing. Everything seems so perfectly right.

I jus pray this moment last as long as it possibly can. At the back of my head is a mental preparation to fall any moment. Life seems too perfect for me it seems surreal.. Strange isn't it?

Perhaps some ppl may think i'm bragging about my life.. I don't know. N i frankly don't care..

Life is beautiful because i believe so. I'm thankful i know i wont go hungry and still be sheltered. I cant believe i can be depressed again cos there's nothing to be depressed about anyway..
Everything in life is like water. There is no fixed form. Nothing really last forever. Perhaps not even love. But why think and why care? Just treasure whatever we have on hand.. when u lose it, there's always something else that comes along.. Just a matter if u notices it. It may be the smallest thing ever. But if we learn to treasure and find contentment in it, life will still be beautiful.
If there's one reason for the peace in my heart, I guess it's cos there's no hatred. Hating anything and anyone is so tiring. Let it go.. Only when we let it go then will there be space for love.

Task List

Thought after about 1 month.. at least half e task would have been cleared? Man i'm so wrong...


PR assignment 1 - due 18th May (Friday)
CRR lecture 18th to 20th May (Fri - Sunday)
AIIA assignment 2 - due 20th May (Sunday)
CRR assignment 1 - due 25th May (Friday) **late**
Austin's bird day - 25th May (Friday)
Clairr's wedding - 26th May (Saturday)
PR assignement 2 - due 1st June (Friday) **going to be late**
Sister's wedding - 5th June (Tuesday)
CRR assignment 2 - 8th June (Friday)
AIIA assignment 3 - 10th June (Friday) *22nd June (Friday)
June's bird day - 10th June (Friday)
CM assignment 3 - 18th June (Monday)
CRR assignment 3 - 22nd June (Friday)
PR assignement 3 - 6th July (Friday)

Confusing Post

I think i have a weak spot for wine. Zonked out on friday morning cos of the wine on thursday nite. N it happened again yesterday after Clairr's wedding.

Saturday was a long day for me cos it's my classmate Clairr's wedding. I was 1 of her "sisters" helping out a bit here n there.. My day started at 9am @ Conrad.. Blessing service starts at 11am, followed by lunch reception. Back to get dressed and dolled pretty in the evening and of cos enjoyed the nice dinner. It's great to see your good friend find a great guy to spend the rest of her life with..! And next week is my dearie sister's very own wedding. Cant really imagine the madness @ home actually. Hurr..

Anyway here's some pictures for now.. When the bride sends me the link with all her photos, i'll upload again..

Austin's Bday..

Updates

Keep things short n sweet.

Sunday morning woke up with migraine. Slept almost the entire day. Had to push back AIIA02 tat was due tat night.

Monday morning, fever attacked and made the migraine worse. But lugged myself out of bed, went to work and collect print outs. Met Audrey for dinner cos the damn migraine n fever drained every single ounce of motivation within me. Finally succumbed to docs at almost 11pm.

Tuesday ain't no better actually. Medicine made me feel worse actually thou i slept through the night. Bad day at work. Met Clairr @ chinatown at night to get ribbon for her wedding.. Went to her new place. It's nice! It has a spiral staircase and roomy kitchen. I LIKE! :D

Scattered brain me forgot my phone on Wednesday. Left e house for work without it. Shucks! Had to rush home to get it after meeting. Ruined my plans to shop for my dress.. Met Austin at nite n went on a "secret mission". Sorry details confidential but pls la! None of the sorts u're thinking if u're grinning away. Haha...

Thurday.. i finally made time for yoga! Went for class at noon. Sis n i had a very expensive lunch! Me n my great idea of dining @ Hilton Hotel.. Cos i have a $20 voucher u see. Tot we'd go to e organic cafe to get some healthy food b4 i stuff myself silly at night. Haha... End up the bill after e discount still came up to 50 bucks for 2. No wonder only Japanese Tai tais visit tat secluded Glow Juice Bar. I cant deny the food was really good thou... Today is pretty fruitful cos i got my LBD from Daniel Yen finally. Gonna look ard more for day dress, else Massimo Dutti is my backup plan. Found a nice white tulip dress for Sister's big day coming really soon.. *excited*

Today i made a mistake to go color my hair at my usual salon. I'm not sure why i got overcharged this time n i think i might never head there ever again unfortunately. I did a slight trim, did a base color n some highlights. She suggested only kept it on the surface so wont be so drying. So there were barely 10 thin streaks only. Cost me abt $200 bucks. DAMN IT.

Nevertheless i went on to meet my darlings to celebrate Austin's birthday..

Had dinner @ French Stall but no pics cos i think we gobbled food down too soon? Lolz..

Details of it come later after i upload the pictures. Good nite for now... I'm zonked after so much wine.... Nitez..

Oh people.. I'm so freaking angry and pissed off with myself!

I happily finished my PR assignment way before time.. i got it all done by last monday when due date was suppose to be due only friday.. n guess wat?

I JUST DISCOVERED I FORGOT TO SUBMIT!

Wednesday and Thursday i was so packed by my work, so much so on thurs nite only met Austin at past 11pm to discuss e assignment in town. Friday nite was still looking at Jonathan n gloating over his last minute sprint in class. Even resort to doing the assignment in CRR class in front of the lecturer..

My mind is conveniently set at "I've gotten it over".. n conveniently forgot i still need to upload the assignment to server! Oh slap me.. zzz....

Lazy Bum!

It is 2am Sunday morning n i'm bumming ard.. doing anything else but my essay!
Complacent jus bcos its a short write up? Nah... I'm jus plain lazy bum! Somehow i cant get into the mood. I've accessing if i should change a topic since i'm not interested. But there ain't enough time.. n i should finish what i started. I promise to get down to work really soon ok.. :P

Had afternoon class yesterday, n i only slept at 6am. Well what to do? I have that much things to do n my brain wont kick start at times.. So i was practically dozing off the ultimately daunting rhetorics class today, but im glad to feel i've learnt some new stuffs n at least the 4.5 hrs aren't completely wasted anyway.

Hit the sacks the moment i finish shower after i got home.. Perhaps its due to the beer i had during dinner time that gave me the headache i had after i woke up at midnight. Tat's part of e reason for my procrastination... *excuses! :P*

I'm glad somehow my prayers were answered. The supposed family problem i was having is more or less settled today. Well, least things didn't go out of hand beyond control. So its a good thing after all..

I'm actually also glad to find myself being thankful for the little things in life.. Somehow i know for sure i've recovered the bright and positive self i haven seen in some years. The energy to keep going and the drive for life is kicking in slow and steady. It's just great to have life in check. It scares me a bit how fast time flies thou. Almost half of 07 is gone. Time to do review on my year's resolutions and make sure i work doubly hard to achieve them! :D

Ok i'll be good n get started on my paper for tmr..

Pictures, again!

Pictures posted previously somehow got lost in cyberspace.. Here's our sentosa trip again!

Ranting..

N finally.. Blogger is back to life again. The buttons n layout are all back to normal again.. *phew*

I survived half of the very crazy week. Its gonna be even tougher over the weekend cos there's so much happening at the same time. Have classes and advertising assignment due on sunday.. there's alot to do within this 48 hrs.

Apart from work, alot is happening at home. N i'm really crossing my fingers things turn out well. There's little i can do to change anything. Can only keep hoping things be well at the end.

It is a pretty emotional night for me. I have so many questions abt life and abt humanity. From a friend's story abt his father.. From how i perceive my father and my family problems.. From the many relationships ard me, its problems.. I'm jus thankful during this stressful period of time i'm not lugging with me relationship problems.

Somehow i'm thankful for what i have in my life rite now, the fulfillment i get from sch n work n a few close friends who are very real and sincere. N i continue to wish and pray every unhappiness and misery ard my loved ones to go away..

Guilt!

I woke up feeling really sick today. Got sun burnt on my back yesterday @ Sentosa. So i feel like it's on fire all the time.. n thanks to irregular eating habits, gastric has been giving me some problems lately. So today i woke up feeling nausea, feverish and with a swollen fish eye (n have no idea why)...

Anyhoo, i woke up with one sole intention of completing my PR assignment. House was empty cos dad, mum n my sis had went to msia to distribute her wedding invites for the coming big day. I thought it was a good day for me to focus on work. But i ended feeling miserable cos there's no one to get food n medicine for me. Had no choice, crawled out of my "ulu ulu island" and landed myself in mad-town Bishan. Got back in an hour feeling even more sick than ever.

I focused for an hr, did research, etc.. N i got a msg from my sis, telling me mum brought out with her a card i gave her years ago for mother's day. She was talking in the car, saying no one remembers it's mother's day!

Actually i did. n actually when we went shopping last wk, sis bought her a leather bag tat she wanted. I remembered.. but somehow i got myself buried in work, and sorta convenient brushed this day off my mind. Frankly i always felt this day is over rated and overly commercialised. It's not as if i only express my love today out of 365 days a year..

But seeing tat sms made me felt so guilty. Indeed i've been too focused with work n studies tat i've neglected my mum n her feelings. Perhaps i really should have set work aside n jus head to msia with the family actually. So at 6pm, i dashed to town to grab a card n some tonics for her.

I guess we all know our theories well. We mus treasure e ones we love, treasure those ard us, blah blah blah.. we always think we know. But actually we do lose our way and end up neglecting the feelings of those ard us. This couple of months my time been so taken up by work n studies. At the instance when i was making my way, i realise i've lost myself..

This morning b4 she head out, she woke me up from slumberland and handed me money to get food for the day.. me being half awake, conveniently took e money, say bye bye and went back to sleep. Just what am i thinking? I feel ashame of myself for being so not nice and taking things for granted. :(

I really should manage my time better and adopt a better attitude! :(

Random? Maybe...

I'm not really sure if there's something wrong with blogger these days, or is it the new site is not mac friendly. My posting page is all in a mess. No longer the same as before.. The entire page does not display as it should be. I can still post. But the buttons aren't working. So i cannot change font colors. I might be migrating to a new site soon..

Anyhoo.. Last nite, i was suppose to have dinner with Aud, Ost and Koobs and go shop for my dress in the midst of my work madness. But cos Audrey fell sick in the morning.. plus Koobs flew me aeroplane! so decided to call off dinner lor. Sobz.. Anyway i end up working till really late too. On msn after i got home. Chat till 4am before we decided to call it a day. Everyone have their own set of problems isn't it? Talked abt Audrey.. then followed by Ost losing his cool over he n his new car issue.. Sigh.. n when i thought of e stuffs sis said to me few days back, it depresses me a little. Bottom of all our prob is tat we jus need a little more understanding for our hectic schedule!

Today elaine n i head to Sentosa early in the morning. Nice n relax morning.. after i napped for 2 hrs, head off to a gig @ Art House with Audrey.. all the jamming stuff.. its pretty cool actually. It ended at abt 10, before we head to catch Ost @ United Square. Frankly i'm pretty zonked out by the time i reached. But e purpose of heading there is to analyse on our PR paper together.. Audrey went home earlier since she has finished her stuffs by noon. Amazing shit..

Supper jus now was pretty nice. There was only 1 store left open at 1230am. Some dubious chicken rice store @ thomson. I had porridge thou.. Perhaps i've been hungry for too long earlier, ended up feeling kinda sick now. Gastric pain coming up? *sigh..*

I'm gonna zonk out now n make sure i complete my PR paper tmr.. Nitey peeps!

..Here's alot of words..

A little update on the past couple of days.. I jus seem to have so much to say, so much to do and SO LITTLE TIME!!

I started working on my advertising essay since Saturday evening after i got home from my lecturer. Thought with a pretty concise plot for the essay i'd be pretty safe. So left all the writing till Saturday evening when paper is due in 24 hrs from then. I ended up writing for the next 42 hours.. Taking a 3 hr nap at 7am of sunday. n guess wat? I wasn't even done at 1am of Monday morning.. wat kinda madness is this?

Frankly i've set high expectations on myself for this module particularly because i've been working in the industry and i'm suppose to have better insights. Moreover i've been doing my readings rather conscientiously. Ended up wat was delaying me was because the perfectionist within me starts creeping out. Unbelievable as it may seems rite? It's just tat u guys dunno.. when it comes to my final art or freelance work. I become damn anal about every single detail. Bcos i simply HATE taking over shit work for other ppl.. n i hate to receive horrible working files from other designers if we ever have to liase. So trust me. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to things i'm serious with..

Anyhoo just when i'm about to conclude the long long essay, my brain juice dried up and my brain went dead. So i told myself, 'f**k it'~! i'm going to sleep! No point to sit at the desk staring blankly and my macbook tat has been overworked. n i'm glad i rested my poor brains..

I dug myself outta bed at 8am Monday morning n dragged myself down to have a good cuppa machiatto n cake at gloria jeans, Raffles City. Sat there at abt 9am for 3 hrs n i'm glad i finished the thing really quickly.. simply cos my brain was functioning again! It felt to strike off 1 piece of work off the long long task list.. Quickly head off to marina to meet Lainey for lunch. After she head back to work, i head home for a quick 1 hr nap b4 i rushed to office again for meeting.. A really bitchy session went on there but shan't go into details abt it cos it's simply not worth it!

At evening, met Clairr to confirm her wedding's order of service booklet design.. This babe is getting married on the 25th this month! So many weddings going on in my life now la.. few days after hers is my dearie Sister's.. Talking abt that i better start packing my room!!!

Monday night, thanks to Clairr, she settled my dinner n booze n even transport home. Hee.. but u guys know wat? I got gastric pain at 2am in the morning.. zzz.. how sad rite! tsk.. cos i didn't eat enough for dinner lor. (no appetite at e instance ma....)

Anyhoo tuesday started really really bustling.. Work work work non stop @ home until abt 3pm. Then i started fantasizing about shopping! Haha... finished 1 FL work in e mornin, so i tot i shld reward myself. B4 my friends can even reply my 'invitations' to shopping.. work got screwed! Headed to office.. Ended working in office till 8pm b4 i left. ZZzz....(n i dont think i'd get reimbursed for today! suckss..)

I reached Borders @ 830pm to grab couple of books. I'm glad i was strolling down the aisle within the sea of books feeling happy cos i finished my work! After splurging more than 60 bucks on books.. (I bought Advertising by Ogilvy finally!) Headed to starbucks n told myself i'd get the FA(final art) done for Clairr's booklet done so tat i can send for print tmr.. Left starbucks at 11, work nt completed thou.. but i decided to take a walk down orchard road anyway...

My long walk alone.. with my ipod as companion.. alot of thoughts crossed my head. I'm nt sure why but the thought that i'm very fortunate crossed my mind. The beautiful things i have in life came into mind. Especially so for my classmates who tide me through very nonsensical period of assignment times.. my best friends i have for the past 10 years..

then My mum.. she always make my tears flow non stop yet i love her the most in my life. And bcos of her i became so much stronger and learnt the valuable lessons of life..

My dad.. the best thing that can happen to my life is to have him as my dad. provides for my entire life.. not jus the past n present, but also the plans he made to make sure i have a financially smooth future.. he calls me every single day to ask me if i wan dinner. Today he didn't. N when he finally called at 8pm, he explained in detail why he didn't call earlier. This is his way of teaching me about responsibility and love without boundaries? Perhaps..

alot more random thoughts flooded my mind.. anyhoo i decided to cab home since it's already 1130 when i reach centrepoint.

(i met a foreigner along e way actually n its e 2nd time within a week tat i got harrassed by foreigners. last wk was an angmoh.. this time a chinaman! irks me quite a bit.. but i shall save e unpleasant details...)

Back at home.. it's back to reality time.

the reality hit me hard when i start to update my planner.. *feeling faint*


PR assignment 1 - due 18th May (Friday)
CRR lecture 18th to 20th May (Fri - Sunday)
AIIA assignment 2 - due 20th May (Sunday)
CRR assignment 1 - due 25th May (Friday)
Austin's bird day - 25th May (Friday)
Clairr's wedding - 26th May (Saturday)
PR assignement 2 - due 1st June (Friday)
Sister's wedding - 5th June (Tuesday)
CRR assignment 2 - 8th June (Friday)
AIIA assignment 3 - 10th June (Friday)
June's bird day - 10th June (Friday)
CM assignment 3 - 18th June (Monday)
CRR assignment 3 - 22nd June (Friday)
PR assignement 3 - 6th July (Friday)

Depressing... Cant go on further cos i need to get on my design work! ZZzzz.......

TGIF!

Thank God it's Friday again! (Not tat it makes a difference to me actually..)

Glad last nite was pretty constructive. Got my whole essay sorted out. Today i jus gotta piece them all together.. Foresee this weekend gonna be super busy cos apart from the fact i might be going to class, there's assignment due. N before i can breath, there is the first PR to be submitted on next Friday. I'm kinda freaking out for my PR module n i'm nt really sure why.. On top of this all i have my freelance stuffs to complete! *feeling dizzy..*

Be catching up with my darling Audrey n Osteen @ Bliss tonight..

Well actually I was suppose to be watching movie with my bros.. but guess wat? My suggestion on tuesday sort of became a passing comment no one took seriously. It was called off even before i knew it? Hmm.. ok that's fast.

Everybody have a good weekend. I know lainey's going to Wala Wala.. Hmpff! Bo jio.. *bleah*
Junie study hard ok.. Mugging will be over b4 u know it.. At least urs will still finish earlier than me. So hope tat comforts u. Hee..

It's funny how I try to set a study environment within my room. Barred the TV.. no iTunes (thou my current lib is soooo limted).. no MSN (no one wants to talk actually! sobz..)...
N I WAS STILL PROCRASTINATING!!

Surfed aimlessly around the whole entire world.. n i decided, "F*** IT!"

Plug in my iPod.. and TAHAA! e moment Ursula 1000 and Jurassic 5 starts spinning, my hands actually reached for the set of notes without my knowings.. AMAZING!

Black Tuesday

The happy times of my Black Tuesday..

Dearie Elaine brought back Dunkin' Donuts from KL and they were to die for.. Thanks babe! Really appreciate them! Who cares if they say only leave for 2 days.. I've freezed the remaining 4 and heat them up as and when i wanna savour them for the next couple of days!


... and apart from lovely donuts, there's the Dau Sa Pia which the boys specially requested.. Funny thing is tat they weren't really interested in e donuts, thus i get to bag the remaining 4 home! Hurrr....


Dunno what kinda picture is this... But its a pretty common sight of the boys misbehaving..



The only reason these 2 pictures are here is cos Raymond makes our head looks SMALL! Lolz..


The remains of the pretty traumatizing night, let it be history and may the wind take them far far away from me.. I jus know i got home this morning feeling drained and i've succumbed to medication to remain sane..